aRgH~~~!!!

think my temper going frm bad to worse le...

was very pissed off by my sis... her stupid leg swollen also wanna use my cam and take... waste my hp memory only... damn it one leh... argh~~~ whenever she at hm sure will pissed me off de lor... argh!! wanna scream out... but cannot... hell... this is really getting on my nerves!!!

damn damn damn damn!!!!

really sry to anyone toking to me now... sry i dun meant to be mean to u all... but u all come tok to me at the wrong time le...

sry...

boring sunday...

ciaoz...

sry~~

sry ppl... just realised tat not all of u might be able to view the chinese words...

well... for the song i wan to find, it's "sha po lang" by JS and the song i want to dedicate to the one i'm trying to forget is "ai qing kang ti" by evonne xu...

tat's all...

ciaoz...

~~

i think this song would best describe my feeling now...

it's 爱情抗体 by 许慧欣...

我不知道今天星期几 是个坏天气
一年又一天 忽然又想到你
翻翻小说 弹一弹钢琴 顺手回几封电子信
我在捷运线的车子里 像低空飞行飞过
这城市 才不管目的地
那些我和你有过的事情 都像逃走的水蒸气
I'll Be Leaving You
没有什么原因 爱情有时候是恶作剧
我要自己带着孤单抗体 学习忘记
我会调整呼吸 我会鼓起勇气
爱情很美丽 可是也很无情
我学会去用走迷宫的心情 去挣脱那回忆

this might be so call for the one i'm trying hard to forget...

ciaoz...

杀破狼

argh.... y cannot find the song i wan??

damn... it's such a nice song... so tempted to buy the whole album...

ppl... here's a really nice song tat i like very much... "杀破狼" by JS... highly recommended by me!!

it's a very nice song though the mtv is very kua zhang... hehehe...

if by chance anyone d/l le, pls send to me!!!

*cOuGh CoUgH*

coughing like shit now... dunno y my throat so itchy...

tok to him last night... maybe cos i set my mind on forgetting him le ba... tok more than usual to him... at least now can start to crap le... great improvement le leh~~ wahahaha...

well still feel a bit of a heartache... hope to heal soon... wahahahha...

today went to do rwps... then halfway through the project, jasper ask me if i can pass my laptop to him at city hall mrt instead of dover mrt... i was like "wat? city hall?? i now in sch doing project leh!!"

lucky for him ah... km in sch... then he help jasper to take the com from me to city hall... hahaha... both me and irene also think tat km majiam jasper's servant like tat... tat time jasper left his ic at harbour front also is km help him go take de... they really very close... according to mrs wong, they know each other de secrets oh~~ wahahaha....

after project went to jp with lp and jac... got a new file, 2 pairs of earrings, 2 hairclips and a new dress... like tat dress very much... cos can either wear it as a tube dress or a sun dress...

after tat went hm at bout 7 plus... cos need to meet jasper to get my laptop back... was on the train back to wdl le met a strange indian ah pek... he kept toking to me in indianish english... which i dun understand much lor... then he reeks of alcohol... think he drunk le trying to tok to ppl... then me kana... end up i had to bluff him i live at cck then got off train to change cabin...

actually wanted to get off at marsiling then either take bus to wdl or wait for the next train... cos the ah pek going down at wdl de... but saw my cousin, so end up alighting at wdl... jasper very lucky... i nearly missed him lor... waiting for me at the platform nv say de wor... if i take bus back har... then he'll wait there like an idiot lor... then very heng i saw him when the train pass by... otherwise i'd tot tat he waiting at the control there...

well... got back hm le start to watch tv... until now then came online to blog... going off soon le... my sis need to use the laptop to do her work...

ciaoz...

SiAnZzZz 1/2~~

really sian 1/2 when i hear this lor... he has someone he likes... and is someone i dunno...

haiz... y does it hurt as much as whn i broke up with cf?

i suddenly feel so empty inside me... really so gan kor now... it's like so hard to breath now...

dun think my feelings for him r real... it might only be a short fluctuation and not really like him... but if tat's so... y do i feel so depressed now??

do i really like him?? i really dunno...

had i really fallen in love with him?? i also dunno...

argh... such mixed feelings again...

shld be relieved tat i know the truth now... at least i can now pack up my feelings for him and move on with my life...

haiz... y i'm i so emotional??

shld have read into the signs le... if he doesn't have someone he likes, y wld his hp go off as often as ppl who r in the wooing period of a relationship??

so stupid of me... shld already pack up my feelings when i first suspected this... then wun fall so deep in now...

wat to do... i'm just such a dumb idiot... damn...

haiz... just have to pick myself up again now... though the path might now be smooth, but i'll be able to pick myself up... did tat once le... think i'll definitely make it this time round...

daijiobu desu~~ i'll be able to adapt and be back as a fren to him soon, just like now i'm a fren to cf too... just tat now as close as before... well... hope it will be real soon... sch reopening le... going to see him le... but for now, think will go low profile for a while... resume back to my old quiet self... 1st few days will definitely be tough... but when the going gets tough, the tough gets going... will be back as a tough ger le... wahahaha...

i shld also be happy tat not many ppl, including him, knows tat i like him... at least without this knowledge, i think it's much easier for both of us to xia tai... at least wun be so gan ga when we see each other in sch...

maybe love is really like wat ppl say... it's not about having tat person u like with u, but to wish them happiness wherever they r and whoever they r with...

well... really wish tat he will be able to successfully win tat ger's heart and be successful in the relationship...

zhi neng shuo wo men you yuan wu fen le~~

ciaoz...

hAiZzZz~~

today really a sian day lor... early morning got woken up by ryan again... he wanna take my cushion but cannot pull it out from under my legs... end up he started crying for my mum... my mum nv hear him then he wan me to call my mum for him... toot lor... call my mum in for him so tat he can complain to her bout me...

got project meeting at 12... end up me only got out of bed at 1030... shower le then come out realised tat ryan can sing so many nursery rhymes le... so cute... when he dunno how to sing le he will still keep asking me wat's next... so funny lor...

was nearly late for project... heng still managed to reach je in time... do the project for a while only... cos like nv gather enough info lor... then end up we went for lunch and then hf went to buy the ingredients for the cake she baking for km tonight... really think they very sweet to each other lor... hahaha...

shop finish le took the train hm... damn... peak hr and i accidentally took the train tat goes to yew tee... end up alighting at cck then hf have to pei me wait for the next train... really pai sei leh... u carry so many things still pei me wait for the next train... waste ur time...

reach hm le found ryan watching indian show... we switch channel also cannot... then now he so funny... my dad gave him a pen tat write if u pull the top and the pen tip will go in if u push it down... then i say his pen so cute he now mumbling to himself tat his pen is so cute so special... wahahaha... this baby is soooooo cute~~~

will blog again later la... now going to eat dinner le.. tata~~

ciaoz...

NoNe~~

just decided to blog again for tonite... now got a strange strange feeling...

dunno y also la...

love is always so troublesome... i believe no one in their right mind wud enjoy single-sided love...

u like tat person... but nv say it out...

scared to be hurt... yet u can't stop urself...

always hoping tat one day, u'd also realised tat person like u...

if tat person like u, gd for u cos it's a happy ending...

however.... wat if the person dun like u?? will u still be able to take it?

even if the person like u and u like him... ur feelings are known to each other and u become boy ger frens... will ur other part be able to withstand the outside temptations and be totally faithful to u?

just heard things frm my sis... ting le dou sian lor... there are bhb ppl in this world who just loves to throw themselves at other ppl, even those with bf or gf... will ur other part be able to not stray away? u will not know at all...

i think even in a relationship, u will nv know wat's going to happen next... one moment u might be basking in the sweetness of a relationship, but the very next moment, u might have a heated quarrel with ur partner...

the start of a relationship is always sweet... but how to maintain the relationship requires a lot a lot of skills and communication... pls dun be dumb... take ur partner's words seriously... any hints and most importantly things they tell u straight in the face, PLS TAKE THEM SERIOUSLY... if u dun, this cld spell the doom of this relationship... if ur gf or bf dun feel comfortable with this ger or guy tat always tag along with u, just try to avoid tat person, even if u r those ppl with heck care attitude... unless u r such a big bitch or bastard...

sometimes i wld feel like being a xiao nu ren... but in order to protect myself frm being hurt, i've to force myself to change to a da nu ren... it's really tiring doing tat lor... i also like to sa jiao to other ppl... but to protect myself, i've to stand up to ppl and not let them bully me...

really very tired frm all this le... feel like i'm a little boat out in the open sea... just wanna find the right harbour to dock on now... dun wanna drift in the open sea anymore...

MaDnEsS~~

wahahaha... think me and my frens all mad today lor... went to ps to catch a 1020 show... damn early lor...

had to wake up at 0730 this morning... then went out of my hse at bout 0845... tot i'd be late... then sent a msg to inform them...

on the way to ps, jasper called me... was so surprised cos it's so damn early lor... all bcos of the stupid inflexible vicky quek... toopid lor... so despo for the earning we made from the residential project... cos so much trouble for ppl...

anyway, reached ps just in time lor... meet at 0930 and i only stepped onto the train at bout 0850... so surprised tat i only need 45 min to get from wdl to dhoby ghaut lor...

was still not the first to arrive there... jq was even earlier than me... waited for the rest of them... and soon, they arrived... watched "The Terminal"... was a nice and touching show lor... but i think if u dun like artistic shows, better dun go watch it ba...

after the long show, went for lunch before walking with jac and mabel to orchard building there for their eye brow trimming lesson...

then cos too early and dun feel like going hm, the rest of us (sp, jq, alvin and me) went to play pool... was a very fun game... then lp came and join us after her cca and jac too after her lesson...

now just reach hm then start to blog le... next time nv ever blog at one plus in the morning... think server too busy... can't publish the posts de...

anyway, need to go complete my minutes le... eugene wants it asap... hahaha... muz be a gd and responsible secretary.... hahaha...

will update again if there's anything interesting later in the night...

ciaoz...

SaDz StOrY~~

hey... here's a story to share with all of u... got it frm an email my fren sent to me...

Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half.

Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with.

Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now. (both sigh n silence for a while)

Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game.

Peter: Eh? What game?

Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think?

Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months.

Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go?

Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is a really great movie in theater now.

Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and sent each other home)

Day 2:
Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star.

Day 3:
They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time.

Day 7:
Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.

Day 25:
Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together for a while.

Day 67:
They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek.

Day 84:
Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.

Day 99:
They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sat down onto a bench.

1:23 pm
Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.

Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like?

Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.

1:43 pm
Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter havent return. Then someone walked up to her.

Stranger: Is your name Tina?

Tina: Yes, and may I help you?

Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend.

Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter.

Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh.

11:51 pm
Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon. We found this letter inside his pocket.

The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said.

Tina, our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realize that you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. Tina, I love you.

11:58
Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the wish I made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God to let us last forever. We were suppose to last 100 days so Peter! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back to me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU.

As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart stopped beating. It was 100 days.

NOTE*Tell the guy or girl that you love them before its too late. You never know whats going to happen tomorrow. You never know who will be leaving you and never returning...

TiRiNg BuT fUn DaY~~

wahahaha... as can see frm my title, today really damn tired... as i type now, my eyes are tearing away lor...

lack of sleep cos of the late night... then woke up early morning to go to sch for my year 1 training meeting... have to start to plan for the training le... cos it's in nov... this is my 1st try at being a secretary... so was a bit excited...

reach sch le found out at only 3 ppl turn up on time... but after tat, louis and jasper came... the rest is either got things on or overslept or didn't check their email lor.... next time cannot just send email le... ppl dun check as often as i do de... hahahaha...

think today's meeting i still can catch wat is said la... not too bad... hehehe...

lucky today's meeting ended earlier than i expected... went to orchard to meet mabel they all before the basic skincare class tat we signed up for... just had milk tea for lunch... think i over hungry till not hungry le... reach there le dun feel like eating liao... so only had the tea as my lunch... hehe...

went for the class at shishedo at orchard building... the building where califonia fitness is located in orchard... was quite interesting... esp last part... hehehe...

got a makeup session... then need a volunteer... no one volunteered then i end up being the "model"... hahaha... was quite fun cos got pro to help me do makeup... then at least i know wat colour she use on my skin, next time no need so troublesome go and find... but one bad thing... she help me shape my eyebrow till like i kana "duan mei" like tat... so ugly lor...

sob sob... my poor eyebrow... boo hoo hoo....

tml go out muz hide my brows le la...
hahaha...

anyway, tat's bout all i can write for now... mum nagging like mad le... and i need sleep cos tml going for movie in the morning...

so happy now cos i gotta chat with him today... wahahaha...

crazy ger...

ciaoz...

...

argh... wrote a long blog... but stupid blogger load so slow... slow until i cannot tahan... sianz...

think i'll rewrite the entry tml... mum nagging le...

ciaoz...

BuSy NiGhT~~

wahahaha... here for a short blogging...

gtg tabulate my RWPS result after this... so gotta make it a short one...

busy night as the title is... cos i rushed through my residential project de a/c and my stupid sb survey which i forgot to conduct before the hols... finally finished both now...

nothing much happened today... except ryan broke my da jie's glasses and my er jie is back for tonight...

not gd with her ard... keep nagging at me... i using com also make me find a song for her... then hf call she also wan me to ask hf... actually find for her le also no use... she dun use the laptop, neither does she open window media player whn she finally use it... wat for d/l lor... waste space only...

realise how bhb ppl can get... my da jie just told us tat there's this ger in ntu biz year 1 who basically throws herself at me sis's bf lor...

he was walking and toking with his fren, then this idiotic woman come and walk inbetween them... breaking their conversation...

whn taking bus, there's space beside her... she grab his hand to make him come closer lor... then when he move and make his other fren move, tat ger actually bui song and pinch his nose lor... shldn't she know tat he's already attached?? and she's not even as pretty as my sis lor...

haiz... think she sorta reminds me of someone... hahaha.... shall not mention it here... think those who know tat person shld know when reading this ba... hehe... i'm so evil...

well... this can't be help... no matter how much i bui song these ppl, they r still ard us... have to just accept tat fate... wahahaha...

ok la... end here le... go tabulate my RWPS survey result while watching guess guess guess le... tata...

ciaoz....

SiAnZzZz~~

wahahaha... the beginning of the sch hols...

damn sianz... no one ask me out... sob sob...

woke up at bout 10 plus all bcos of ryan's loud crying... can't blame him la... tat poor baby got ucler in his mouth... then damn painful for him... i saiyang him also cannot... keep crying and demanding for my mum... end up have to call my mum into the room... not just call out to her, but is use my hp to call my hse phone... cos i know if my mum can hear me call out to her, she'd already be in the room le... ryan cry so loudly...

end up being bullied by ryan all day long... from taking my comic books to climbing onto me to throwing things at me...

went shopping @ cwp with my da jie at bout 2 plus... dun wan to bring ryan de... but he keep wanting to come... a big mistake to let him come with me... tat baby damn itchy hands... touch here touch there... have to carry him all the time... training for muscles... wahahaha...

reach hm le he still dun wanna let me off... i read my fruit basket comics he also wanna read... then end up sacrifice the garfield comics... hahaha... library bks... nvm la.... hehehe....

fell asleep while reading my bk... till 8 then woke up... watch tv till now then came online to blog... a few days nv update le... wahahaha.... just skip tat few days la... been waiting for him to come online... damn... shldn't think of him le...

oh ya... just now go cold storage with da jie, i bought hagen daz ice cream... so nice... and it's at a offer price... hehehe... like auntie hor?? but tat's me la... wahahaha...

think have to really exercise this hol le... dunno y recently got sweet tooth... now in the fridge got a big bar of chocolate and a tub of ice cream waiting for me... muahahhaa... but muz exercise off the input la... then can balance out le... wahahaha...

another pic... 

here's one of the pics frm my class outing at sentosa... 

NiCe DaY~~

wahahaha... shld update bout yesterday... last night too tired le... reached hm then drop dead on my bed... hahaha...

anyway, had a really enjoyable day with my classmates at sentosa...

though lesson time was still as boring, but we were all so excited bout the trip later in the afternoon...

lesson ended at 2... then we went off to sentosa... as many of them got train concession, they all took the train there... only mabel and me took the bus there cos it's faster... but... we still reach there at bout the same time as them cos of the long waiting time... sianz... hahaha...

reach there le me and mabel went to harbourfront cold storage there buy food for the mini picnic... i called lp to tell her to wait for us at the interchange... in the end, she tot i toking bout the stop in sentosa... diaoz lor... she called back while they were already in the shuttle bus to tell me... y nv call earlier?? hahaha... but nvm la... make them wait for us like we r the da pai ppl like tat... hahaha...

found something irritating also... they all so not auto de... reach there earlier also dunno how to help us buy the entry tix... buy their own tix tat time nv help us buy also... wth... haiz... but not to spoil ppl's mood i nv say anything... was initially quite pissed off by them... 8 brains also dunno wat is call wait for us or even help us buy the tix first...

we then took the monorail to the beach... ended up everyone sat quite far frm each other... then in our attempt to change carriage, the space got occupied... end up some of them went first... then the guys alighted to pei me, ty and hf wait for the next monorail... at first wanna go siloso beach de... then dunno y end up going palawan beach... alight on the siloso beach le then they say wanna go palawan... end up we have to split up in diff carriage again...

finally reach palawan beach le... we found a gd plaxe and settled down... then me and mabel went to wash our apples... on the way back, it started raining... then we rush back to the shelter while the rest of them move the things there... at the shelter, something funny happened...

hf accidentally stepped on dog shit... but only kana a bit on her slippers... then jq and ty accompanied her to wash it... then alvin told hf tat stepping on shit is gd luck... i then ask alvin to move all the food frm the plastic bag cos the bag also kana le... then end up, alvin stepped on the shit himself... unlike hf, he did not just stepped on a bit, but he stepped on it until the whole of the sole of his slipper also kana... so damn funny... then we joked tat he got more luck than hf cos he step on more shit than her... hahaha...

in order to prevent more ppl frm stepping on the shit, we shifted to another shelter... the rain also stopped le... then some started playing ball games, some resting on the mats while some build sandcastles.... then we decided to bury alvin... at first ask him he say ok de... then after we dug the hole le ask jq go call him... end up jq also go play at playground with them... end up i go... then alvin say dun wanna be buried.. but heng after my pursuasion he agreed... then we all buried him... have him nice body contours and features... then the guys took pics with him... so funny... next time when i got the pics i sure upload it one...

night time soon arrived... we went up to the tower near the beach and sang until ppl also cannot tahan us... hahaha... only went to eat at the seah im hawker centre at bout 9 plus... sp really gd with the auntie there... can tok so much with her lor... wahahaha...

we then went hm at bout ten... since no one taking the red line then i end up going hm by bus instead of trian... if got ppl pei then i sure take the train de... hahaha... too bad dun have...

cud reach hm earlier de... but the bus got caught in a jam cos of some night cycling activity at bukit batok east there... end up only reaching hm at bout 1115 or so... shower le then i immediatly fell asleep on my bed... was so damn tired... but really had an enjoyable day there...

tat's bout all la... gtg prepare for my cousin's bbq party tonight...

ciaoz...

YeAh~

wahahaha... damn tired now... just reached hm after going our with my clubmates...

today overslept... then went out of my hse late... tot wud be late... but still end up reaching lect hall at 9 sharp... hehe... but heng today got jac to help me get the class register and mark it for me... really muz thank jac for all the help... everytime i late will also make her help me mark the attendance... hehe... thx ar jac~~

think i really like palam... not only is she funny, but she's also very gd to us... wan to shift forward the lesson she also help us to die die also get a room... hehe... end up today's lessons end at 12... so nice...

after sch went to help lp carry things for her cca's camp... i think a bit too many ppl go le... end up i nv carry anything much... cos almost the guys carry everything le lor... hahaha...

there's so much fun and laughter on our way to find the sheng shiong at taman jurong... 1st we got off at the wrong stop... still nvm, cos on our way to taman jurong shopping centre, we got lotza entertainment... 1st, jq the china tour guide... next become sp as the tour guide... then become alvin the lao da bring the "xiao dis and xiao meis" to chiong... hahaha... the last one most entertaining... cos alvin really look like ah beng today... somemore with the newsletter... majiam those ah bengs use the newsletter wrap their parangs like tat... going to chop someone up... haha... then sp and jq started acting as if alvin the ah beng is going to chop sp up then jq is stopping alvin to let sp escape... hahaha... so funny....

after tat continue the bus journey to sheng shiong... sp almost got us off the bus at the wrong stop again... heng lp got ask the bus driver before we got onto the bus... then the bus driver told us is not tat stop... otherwise got to walk a long way there...

on our way back to meet hf and ty, it suddenly rained heavily... end up we stop over at mac to get ice cream... then i realised my index finger got a cut... hahaha... didn't even know when got hurt de... think is quite some time le... cos the blood almost dried up le... hahaha... went to get my macflurry then realised jq left a plaster for me... dunno is the gers ask for the plaster for me, or he put it there de la... but still so gan dong lorz... thx ppl... hehe...

didn't use the plaster then la... cos like the injury not serious... but after tat accidentally hurt the injured part again... then put on the plaster before i start to wash ms melu's car... her car damn dirty lor... no wonder insist tat we wash it for her... end up washing her car using only my left hand... ppl wash with right hand i wash with left hand... so stylo... wahahaha... bhb...

wash melu's car halfway i saw william tan go to his car... then told hf bout it... still told her tat he might stop and tok to us... end up he really did!!! wahahaha... hf was like so damn disgusted lor... hahaha.... but at least the rest of the spac2go ppl present got to see how he look like...

anyway, my stupid slipper's strap broke lor... make me walk bare footed all the way frm sb to saa there... lucky got no sharp things or broken glass pieces along the way... otherwise i super kana de lor... also heng tat spac2go rm got string... use it to tie my slippers... cos still have to go bugis buy things.. attracted so many ppl to look at my special slipper lor... buy new slipper tat time the salesperson still say i tie until very nice... so funny... hahaha...

today finally got my tube top le... hehehe... so happy... going to wear it for the class outing to sentosa tml... hahaha... damn tired le... end here ba... still gotta do my cca project de accounts...

ciaoz...

~~

hahahaha... dunno wat to put for the title...

anyway, fa xie in the previous entry le now feeling better... hahhahaa.... back to the old crazy me... hehe...

anyway, today got to know the last of my test results le... heng this time still not too bad...

got a B for biz law...
C for QA (my worse subject)...
then got another B for my PET (principles and economics of transport)...

not too bad la... at least nv fail anything.... hahahhaa....

ok la... off to do my work le...

ciaoz...

ArGh~~~

argh~~~ think i'm being mentally and emotionally tortured by myself... haiz... y do i mind so much bout him... y oh y??

haiz... hate the feeling of one sided love... yet... damn... y am i such a low self control person??? can't even control my feelings towards him...

haiz... though i know sighing is not gd for health.... but.... haiz...

just now tok to him online... think i sorta hurt his ego... haiz... y am i such an idiot??

damn it... hope i can pack up my feelings soon and not torture myself anymore le...

this is not gd... this love tat will not blossom.... haiz... got time then update again...

ciaoz... and hor... ppl reading my blog... pls do not say the contents out in front of other ppl... if u wan to disturb me with it, can do so la... but pls la... not in front of other ppl also... thx ar...

nitez ppl...