now i'm in school...

why am i STILL able to blog despite having so many projects, u might wonder...

why?

it's all becos i'm forgotten....

i dun think anyone i'm doing project with knows that i'm actually in their group...

just like now...

wat they do i dunno... i tried to find out... but no one responded to me...

went to see another project... i didn't even know they start le... they start they nv tell me...

so... tell me... wat is this? i'm i so insignificant tat u all nv notice me?

it's not tat i dun wanna do... but did any of u take my work and word seriously? ask urself... did i ever have a chance to be contributing?

true tat some of u have given me the chance for contributing although i have missed many meetings due to tuition... and i'm grateful to u...

but...

even when u give me work such as ensuring the ppt slides run smoothly, all with same size and same format, with the different backgorund for the slides, making me work until late at night at 2.40AM while u all are happily in dreamland?! ok... i dun mind doing until so late...

but the thing is tat wat for do u want me to do so much when u DUN EVEN APPRECIATE MY EFFORT??

let me ask u...

wat's the use of asking me to do all these when the next day u changed everything i've done? it's just wasting my precious sleeping time... it's not like i want to go for tuition de lor... if got a choice, i might as well stay with u all to do the project...

i feel like i'm again the bloody extra here... at least when u all do project can ask me to go de ma...

like now this grp... they do wat they nv tell me... then when they finally give me something to do and i spotted a mistake, everyone's ignoring me when i tried to raise it up no matter how hard i tried to get their attention... i'm i really tat soft tat u all can't hear me or is it tat u all are too busy tat u can't hear me even when i'm nearly shouting beside u?

really so sick and tired of this life... i really think tat even if i suddenly disappear frm this world one day, no one would even notice tat...

i will write no more... for i shall not drop my tears for this...

ciaoz...

argh... so many projects... but got no time to do...

stress of projects is finally catching up wth me... out of the six modules i'm taking, five of them are with projects... and all deadlines are during the next two weeks... so many projects means got many presentation as well... so stress...

haiz... sometimes i just wish i'm a billionnaire... then no need to work... and can get a mp3 and a new phone... oh... and a digi cam too... i not very fussy de... a 512 mb mp3 would be gd enough for me... no need to have screen to show wat some is next de... got would be an advantage la...

haiz... sianz... my stupid phone is getting frm bad to worse le... who can save me phone without me having to pay them? hahaha... really like motorola A668... so nice cos got writing function and can read chinese and got camera...

digi cam would be the last in my list la... cos i got cam phone le... so no need for digi cam... if the hp got video recording even better... hahahaha... then can save on digi cam le...

think i'll have to wait for 4 mths before i can start saving up for such luxury things... sob sob... tuition is taking up a lot of my time... but bo bian have to teach to earn extra income... shld start saving up le... pls dun ask me go out too often... window shopping can ask me along too la... but to eat gd food, go ktv, bowling, pool etc then can ask la... but most likely not going... see if i got extra cash for those entertainment ma...

haiz... when can i find someone to sponsor me??

hahahaha... think i'm going mad frm the lack of sleep...

ciaoz...

argh...

my bloody v200 is failing me... so pek chek... my v200 the menu button need to press until i pek chek then will work... argh... who can sponsor me a new phone? hopefully is a new motorola A668.. hahaha... kidding... guess i'll have to save up, postpone my haircut and all other expenses until i have enough $$ to buy it...

anyway, the gd news is i might get a new laptop... hahahaha... thx to my er jie... cos she's gonna stay in hall again le... so she wanna bring a com there... but this com tat i'm using now is super lousy and according to her, always kana virus in her sch... then the laptop is not possible cos my da jie and me need it for sch, then the better pc my bro need to use... so my mum decided to get a new laptop cos if get desktop then my house got no place to put le... then my er jie says if i need it then she'll bring it hm and let me use for the week... yeah~~~ wahahahahaha...

now just wondering when can get the new laptop... hmmm.... and hopefully i wun get the lousy and heavy laptop... hahahahaha...

anyone got and cheap and good laptop deal to intro to me? hehehe... if got, feel free to drop a msg for me in my tagboard...

thx...

ciaoz...

had a very strange dream last night... but it's not a nightmare la.. hahahaha...

dreamt tat i was accompanying kor for lunch... then suddenly the scene change to inside a sch... then i was with my mr. right... the dream is so funny and sweet... hahahaha... dreamt tat my mr right went to play basketball... then in the end i just went off to tok with my sec sch classmates... then he came and pacify me... hahahaha... too bad dunno how he look like... hahahaha...

dreams are very funny things la.... dunno how i came about dreaming bout it... maybe cos of moulin rouge tat i watch before i went to bed? hahahaha... dunno also...

anyway, today so bloody suay... was eating lunch when i spilled food on myself... like little kid like tat... tsk tsk... all becos of the stupid food... haiz... then rainy weather also affects my mood...

si bei sian...

ciaoz...