such a long time since i last updated... sry bout tat...

so many events happened since i last blogged. i'm 21 now... stan came to assist me at work for bout 2 mths... thx stan...

got to meet and catch up with my sec sch frens...

frens leaving me one by one at work...

finally got my own laptop...

under tremendous stress in all aspect of my life...

bad skin days are back again...

in the past 2 wks... was given 2 more accounts to learn in less than 2 wks and was asked to take up 1 more big and troublesome account and master it within 3 days at work... was asked to learn it first, handle the acc temp for 1 mth before passing to my colleague... if i dun master it within tat 3 days, might teach the wrong thing... and no other person in the whole office know how tat acc operates...

at hm, was being told off for being very attitude... wtf... u r the one who asked me to use my headphones instead of the speakers... u think i everyday also listen to songs at vol 1? i only slightly louder then cannot hear anyone calling me liao.. we nv tok much? it's u who dun wanna listen to me... i'm under so much stress do u even know? i'm always there to listen... ust dun tok to me when i'm using the com... when i'm watching tv, u can go ahead and tok to me... no prob... i using com means i not free liao... wan me to waste my com's lifespan to listen to u? let me off it first la... my back is facing the whole house and with my headphones plugged on, do u think i'll know where everyone is in the house? why dun u go ard the house and see on ur own instead of asking me? isn't it faster? why are there things tat u can do tat i cannot? when u watch videos on the com, u can also use earphone one wat... why am i always tat one tat got commanded by u not to use my speaker? speakers are meant to be used instead of being there for the sake of being there...

had a very bad dream last night... but did u bother to ask? at least i would sometimes ask u how's ur day at work... but did u even bother to ask bout mine... i got so many grievances but did u even bother listening... at least when i told da jie, she did not just condemn wat i said... all i wish for is tat u could sometimes listen to me even thou i might be repeating things... but if u can't do tat simple thing, how can u expect me to do the same to u? u once said tat we did not put ourselves in ur shoes... but did u ever put urself in my shoes before? being the most stupid and fat one in the family had caused me to be under so much stress since young... had u ever put urself in my shoes before? do u know how it feels to be always compared to u and da jie and even being compared to boy and only to get put down and looked down by others? u already know tat i dun have a lot of frens who i am closed enough to tell them all my troubles... i need a lot of support from this family... but who can i tok to who could give me advices? at least she bothers to listen to me...

i'm really need to de-stress now... sry ppl reading this, but i'm really in a foul mood these few weeks...

first, so many ppl leaving... after fiona then sihui... next one i'm not going to be so kpo already... why seek for trouble to organise a gathering for all of them when it doesn't even go according to my plan? why should i even bother to plan? when i asked for opinion, no one else wanna raise out their idea... and last min then wanna change... do u have any idea how much stress i am under at tat point in time? i have to consider so many things... got a pregnant woman and ppl who are not very into bbq steamboat with me... i'm already so pai sei to have to make silia come outram find us liao le... u all still last min change venue to marina south... and didn't even send the car here to fetch her... it's very troublesome for her lor even thou she say it's ok de... next time u all just decide on ur own then let me know la... wanna go steamboat also dun wanna tell in advance... if u all told me tat even at six, i wun be so bloody pissed off lor... if i'm on my own, i also wun be so pissed la.. but the prob is i have so many ppl here with me... at least wat u all could do is, the one who wanna go marina should not only call and say u all going marina and tat's all... u all could think of getting dennis to come outram and drive silia there, and not take his car and go there on ur own without thinking how the FIVE of us is going to squeeze into ONE cab tat fits only FOUR or even squeeze into the mrt to go there and have to change to bus!!!

another thing is, next time if i ever organise to get present for ppl, DO NOT come and tell me tat ppl are asking u wat i got for tat person... if he/she wanna know, ask them to come to me personally... i will tell them!!! such minor things can dun do tat ma? ask tat person to come to me la... bu shuang then wat? wan me to go ard to everyone who share de place and tell them one by one? hello~~!!! i got so many things to do lor... think i really so free ar? and u know tat i just took over 3 accs and had so little time to learn it all... i really got no time to do tat la.. if it is in early june then i can do tat la... but not now lor...

also, i already mentioned in my email, if u know of anyone who wanna share the present, let me know cos i dunno who else to put le...

bloody hell~~!!!

dreamt tat the 2 of them are together, and only after they are together for 3 mths le then let me found out... now even told me on their own lor... but is i saw them together on the street then know one... was so deeply sadden by tat dream until i woke up... reason being i treat both of them as my frens and not just acquaintances... but they do not trust me to even tell me on their own... muz let me found it out on my own... another one might be i still have a bit of crush on him... which ever it might be also saddens me so...

argh~~!! sucks... just hope no one else will come and be so bo liao to bother me with stupid issues...

damn damn damn damn damn... still very bu shuang even after crying it out~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need to de-stress~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn~!

yahooo~~!!! so many things happened since i last update...

work was fine and i'm loving my colleagues there... met with some rough patches, but all's fine now...

went for S.H.E. concert with char, mich and their fren, limin... was really worth the money... cheapest tix but still managed to see the person... well... indoor stadium wasn't tat big afterall...

went for fei lun hai's kunion activity the next day... so many bloody ppl queueing outside there lor... event starts at 2pm... but got fans queue at 6am lor... by 1045am, the whole place was flooded with fans... but they got chased away cos kbox wanna do biz... hahaha... heng i told mich they all tat in order not to be the last few to come up, we went to sing ktv... hahaha...

took a cab down to imm for their autograph session... queue was damn bloody long la... snake like shit... and so disorganised lor... dunno how imm host one... so lousy... managed to cut queue... haha... heng i got sharp eyes... then saw tat there's another way to join the proper queue... hehehe... but still, just missed by a little bit then can get their signature liao lor... but end up managed to get to see them upclose also la... hahaha... wang dong chen really can fang dian lor... my god... he's eyes are so damn nice and mi ren...

my mum says i'm mad... hahaha but well, still young ma... so muz do something tat i've nv done before... and do it before i become too old for it...

took leave on wed and thurs... hahaha... was supposed to stay at hm and springclean one... but wed was spent at the salon doing my rebonding... yes... i got rebonded hair again... and my sis so bad... say i look like cruella(however u spell it) becos of my fringe...

thurs wanted to watch some taiwanese variety shows first before i springclean... but say mich online and she join me to go fetch xiao zhu... hahaha... went with her and cairu... was damn lucky on thurs la... first, we managed to be right in front of the gate he's coming out... second, xiao zhu smiled and waved only to me, cairu and mich.... wahahahaha... cos his bus is waiting to get out of the airport, then the rest of the fans went to their vans/maxicabs to chase him and only left the 3 of us standing there by the road... and then he turned behind, saw us and waved to us... wahahahaha... so bloody happy... and his skin is really very gd... so smooth lor... hahaha...

mich cairu and me took a cab to go tv station to see him... there, we met mich's pri sch fren and she jio us to go watch the dance floor where xiao zhu is the guest star... and she say even if we dun have the tix also got chance to go in and see... hahaha... but end up, an auntie came and offer us her extra tix... wahahaha... and we get to go in even before mich's fren go in lor... wahahaha... managed to sit in the lower gallery and it's really nice to watch him live lor... hahaha...

the most happy and lucky thing tat happened was tat when i came hm, still dun feel like sleeping yet... so wanna watch some videos and went to check my mails cos mich send some links to some videos... and guess wat... i won tix to xiao zhu's showcase at D.X.O. on sat lor... wahahaha... heng i got check my mail lor... if not sure will miss this chance de... hahaha... anyway, managed to win the tix cos tat day i saw the promo on wo bao and just went to try my luck... wahahaha... damn heng to win lor... still very very happy now... hehehehe...

omg omg.... still so excited and happy~~!!!! yipeeeeee~~!!!!

and today, i went bugis with my fiona, jovvy and eric joined us later... and i saw this super nice casio watch and it's not ex at all lor... hahaha... only 49 bucks... hahaha... and it's the only one in the shop, just placed on display today~~!!! hahaha... bought it immediately... and now, so happy... cos i got a nice nice watch... hehehe... oh ya... today also got some pink crystals... quite nice and the shopkeeper say i got very gd "crystal sense"... hahaha... cos she say the pair tat i got is very special and unique... wahahaha...

hope my relationships with ppl will improve with the help of these crystals...

shall update again when i have the time...

cya... take care my frens...

wow... so long nv manage to update le...

ok.... interesting things tat happened in dec 2006...

firstly, glad tat i got 2 wks off frm being irritated... hahaha... cos dennis went back reservist...

secondly, was supposed to go for my sec sch gathering one... but had to work ot, then boss ask me not to abandon him... end up by the time i knock off, it's already 1 plus in the morning le...

thirdly, got christmas gift exchange in dhl ocean freight... hahhaha.. everyone's so excited over this event lor... hahaha... was asked to be part of the caroling ppl... hahaha... games were fun tat day too... and our team got 1st in the game... hahaha... went for dinner at kushin-bo tat night on ms loo's treat... hahaha... the only bad thing is, dennis joined us... and i made sure tat i was nv left alone with him or made to sit anywhere near him... hahahaha... i know tat's mean but wat to do...

fourthly... went to watch night at the mueseum after work on 29 dec (fri)... time of the show? 1.30 am... hahahaha... they very bad lor... wanna make use of me to make dennis drive us to get the tix first... kept asking me to go and buy first... then end up pat lim volunteered to go with me then dennis got the hint and say he'll drive us there... do closing do until 1 am then we all went to watch the movie... sometimes i just feel so bloody irritated by him la... dunno how he think one leh... pls lor... his car so small liao then have to take me, jovvy, sihui, eric and pat lim... of cos those skinny ppl muz sit behind la... then between me and jovvy, of cos u cannot ask jovvy to go squeeze behind wat... just think tat sometime he's quite stupid la...

fifth, went to countdown bbq on sun with my sec sch frens... many thx to by and gang who organised this... it has been so long since i last met them, and it's so nice to be able to catch up with them... got disturbed by hf... cos i was msging boss while chatting with them... dunno leh... is my expression so obvious and easy to read? if so, why doesn't he and he get it? chat until near 2 am... then walk back with jh... cf at first plan to drop me off then drop sq hm... but end up cos sc's bf drove there, then he say can shun lu send me and jh... but we too ps to ask him do tat... so we walked back hm after sending stan off...

sixth... went ubin to cycle with eric, dennis, jovvy, silia and sh... had a lot of fun cos he's always at the back, out of my sight... hahahaha... on times when he was in front, i either slowed down or went even faster... wahahahaha... even when after tat sh and jovvy went back and the rest of us continued, i also managed to avoid him at all costs... hahaha... fun thing is when only the four of us left... went cycling in jungle tracks... and met with a lot of muddy areas... hahaha... thou dirty, but very fun... hahaha... found a well on the way, and the water's very clean lor... so end up using the water to wash our feets... they very funny lor... still wanna go up to the abandoned hses to take photos... end up cos i was showing the "i dun wan" expression and told them i help them take, then silia say if one is not comfortable then dun take... hahaha... maybe cos my imagination too gd liao... hahaha...

was aching like mad this morning... luckily i got my uzap to massage... hehehe...

dunno if i shld give up on my crush on him... there are a lot of time in fact, when there seem to be something going on between him and sh... yet, there are times when i just can't bring myself to do it... there are time when there seem to be a small possibility between us... maybe he's just being nice to everyone...

when a guy helps you to carry ur things, and likes to disturb you and ur things, yet ask another ger if she wanna go buy breakfast with him and asked her to take charge of his things such as to tell the manager when he's not coming, taking care of the $$ for a fren's bday celebration when he's the organiser, wat does it mean?

wat would you do if someday a fren told u he/she likes you? if u like him/her, would you also tell them? but if u only treat tat person as a fren, how would you reject him/her so tat there'll be least hurt caused?

is it only an infatuation/crush, or have i really fallen for you?

why some ppl still dun get it frm my actions towards them? how i feel towards a person can be told frm my actions and thru ppl whom i always tok to... or am i not obvious enough? to ppl reading my blog, pls note my following actions... if i treat you like a normal fren, u'll see tat the way i treat u is the same as the rest of them... if i dislike you, i'll avoid u at all costs and will become cold and irritated towards u... if i like you, i'll be very nice to you, disturbing you occasionally and will basically agree with watever you do or say...

wat a dilemma i'm facing right in the beginning of this new year...

lotza thx to my frens, esp jovvy and fiona for being such a great listeners and advisors to my brainless complains of such problems... hope u all dun find me a chore...