hmmm.... too tired for the past few days to blog... reach hm at bout 2 am everyday... then super tired le considering tat i had to look after, chase after 4 young kids, the oldest being 6 yrs old...

so many things i had to do... on tues, i had to go to sch... at first plan to pon pdwm lect de... cos too tired to go... but in the end still went for it... after sch, went to cwp to buy slippers before going my grandma hse... cos my slippers is bright green in colour... then not suitable for the funeral...

went up my grandma hse to change... waited like an idiot for the toilet... in the end, i realised tat there's no one in there... my grandma closed the door to prevent my young cousins frm going in, in case they slipped... so stupid of me rite? i didn't even go and open the door... hahahaha... while waiting, my da jie came... so in the end, i went down with her...

my bro and my cousins stayed over on tues nite... i wanted to also... but then my mum dun allow... so bo bian went hm... took my uncle's lorry hm...

when at hm, i started playing maple story... cos my cousin ask me to go online to play with him... so tat i kill and he leech my exp... end up he nv come online... but my bro did...

wed...
the third day of the wake... got prayers on tat day... then if i go to sch, it'd be too late for it... so pon the whole day... went at 11am... walk to my grandma hse with my da jie... she also pon sch tat day...

play poker with my cousins... they so funny.. play tai ti the punishment is to drink a cup of water... nv join them la... just watch only...

was the "childcare" for quite a while... have to kept going after the kids...

prayer session started at 7pm... was quite tiring cos need to stand and kneel, stand and kneel... then with the kids is even worse...

all the offerings were to be burnt tat nite... then while they are preparing, i had to hold the four little kids back... cos the adults scared they might go near the fire... and i was the one to hold them back... until a distant relative call me to go and give offerings to my grandpa... then i moved the kids to the maid before going off...

had to hold hands to form a circle while the fire burns... then have to tell my grandpa wat's the unit no of his new hse... according to the priest... but me and my cousins dunno wat he saying.... and dunno wat's the no... so left it to the adults...

helped clearing up tat nite... also helped to keep the tables after the whole thing ended... while pushing the table top to a corner, it hit my leg... hahaha... clumsy rite? got swollen on the spot... found a big blue black tat nite...

was nervous bout the tqm presentation tat nite... cos the next day presentation and i haven't look thru a single thing... almost everyone stayed over tat nite... except for me... sob sob... if not for the presentation, i would've stayed le...

thurs...
last day of wake, also the day to send my grandpa to the crementorium... had to go sch for presentation... at first dun wanna go too early de... cos my mum told me the prayers start at 11 am, the time of tqm lesson...

anyway, requested to leave early tat day... and tat lecturer so chin chai de lor... so rite after i presented, i went off le... came hm to put all my stuff before going my grandpa's wake... when i reach there, they still praying... then can't squeeze in also... cos dun have joss sticks and incense paper... so after i changed, i join my cousin, jie sheng, whose leg is in case, so he cannot join them... stood there with him... then when i got a chance, i squeezed into the procession after my cousin...

managed to look at my grandpa one last time before they sealed the coffin completely... my aunts cried at tat point in time... was really sad at tat time... cos i will nv get to see him ever again... finally dropped my tears... and after tat, was crying all the way when we're supposed to sit by his coffin while the priest prays... the scene was really bad... cos everyone's crying, esp all the females... had a short rest while waiting to send my grandpa on a last journey... asked my dad to help me put my slippers on the bus...

anyway, just to mention for easy reference, the 4 youngest cousins of mine are jolene, kelvin, ivan and gary...

carried ivan while walking for th last journey... the ground is too hot for the kids to walk... mind u, it's 2 in the afternoon with a blazing sun... so have to carry him... jolene was carried by her uncle. kelvin was carried by my another cousin and poor gary... he had to walk... cos my cousin, wei hao, had carried his bro, kelvin, for the prayers just before going off... in the end, i still made wei hao carry gary... cos its really hot...

on the way, ivan kept toking to me... he was saying tat he saw the maid throwing my grandpa's bed away, tat we are going to burn my grandpa le... tat we had to walk on the hot floor... tat we're not going to see my grandpa again le... smart rite? and guess how old is he? he's just 4 yrs old lor...

halfway, wei hao put gary down again... then my er jie took over carrying him, while my bro offered to carry ivan for me.... when we were near a zebra crossing, my er jie told my da jie to carry gary after tat... in the end, when my da jie carry him, it's time we board the bus...

on the way there, gary is super quiet... ivan was toking non-stop as usual... jolene was with her dad and kelvin was with tat same cousin who carried him... gary only toked when he saw the zoo road sign... cos my grandpa was to be cremented at mandai crementorium...

the environment there is very nice.... really... it's very new i think... it looks new anyway... the sadest part is when my grandpa is sent to be cremented... the priest told all of us to shout to my grandpa's spirit to be careful of the fire... in the end, we dun even know wat's going on until much later... cos our generation hokkien not gd... then no one translate for us... but it's really saddening cos everyone including those distant relatives broke down into tears... even my mum.... then my da yi and san yi is the worse... they cry until my mum have to support my da yi and my san yi zhang have to support my san yi...

when we left the viewing rm, my xiao yi was sobbing in her husband's arms... i see already also very sad...

after tat, we have to unpin the "xiao"... it's different cloth pin onto the t-shirt to show ur relationship with the decease... then took off the socks to wear our shoes to go back hm... here comes the pai sei part... as earlier, i ask my dad to put my slipper on the bus... in the end, my dad dunno pass to who... end up my slippers was lost and i had to go back bare-footed... then my sis they all very bad... still make me walk to get them drinks when they had their shoes on lor... then the floor is so badly littered with peanut shells... sharp one lor...

luckily for me, my dad found my slippers in the end... dunno frm who also... after lunch, went up to my grandma hse... super tired by then... but cannot go hm yet... cos need to settle all the stuff... then having dinner there also...

finally went hm at 6 plus... then took my uncle's lorry hm again... after showering and the last episode of 1/2 yuan fen, i went to sleep le... super duper tired...

fri...
went to sch as usual... think i left sch too early for this one whole week... hf they all so funny... ask me today no need to leave early ar? hahaha... actually wanna go collect my grandpa's ashes with my mum de... but dun wanna be late for lecture... so in the end nv go...

went to spac2go clubrm to put my photo for ndp... dunno if the photo can ma... cos was taken when i'm in sec 3... but bo bian la... no time this week to go take photo...

skipped my lunch cos dun feel like eating after i went back to sb frm saa... fma was next... luckily, i did my fma tutorial last week le... so this wk no need to do...

had my usual picnic during tms lecture... hahahaha... got western food in... so nice... hahahahaha... wun get caught cos jq sitting in front of me... and block me frm ms ok's view.. hahahaha... the advantage of sitting at the last row...

after the 1st hr of lect, we got a break... then i got yogurt drink and an apple in... hahahaha... eat something oily le have to get fruits to clear my intestine... hahahaha... tok cock...

anyway, did nothing constructive frm fri nite till now... play solitaire all the time... ar bo is watch tv... sianz~~

anyway, the only gd news is tat i got my itp attachment le... it's at 78 shenton way, which is so much closer to tanjong pagar mrt than raffles place... the pay is 440 bucks and i'm in the same coy as lp and hf... got gd and got bad la...

gtg... need to have my beauty sleep le... super tired since i broke my record... got up at 8am this morning... tired tired tired...

ciaoz...