hahaha... decided to pon sch today... since only go to sch for 1 hr and then have to rush off to my aunt's hse in east coast there le... waste my time going to sch then havta go there on my own when i dunno where is it... so might as well pon sch lor...

this week nothing much happen la... but somehow towards the end of the hols found tat i've been coming online less and less... like come online also got nothing to do...

hmm... somehow i feel like i'm such a freerider in all my projects... like during hrm tat time... they were all discussing bout the article but i dunno wat they were toking bout... felt so useless there... wan to contribute also... but somehow i also dunno why nv contribute... like all other projects, i'm also like tat... sianz... ppl reading this... muz keep asking me to contribute har... dun wanna be a burden to u all...

anyway, went city hall with the guys in my class today... had lotza fun... at first was they ask if wanna go play pool then i say dun mind... but in the end become i'm the only ger there... then with the 3 of them... hahaha... but i dun mind la... maybe cos used to it le... last time also like tat go out with a grp of guys de...

while on the train there, lp called to ask where we r... cos her cca cancel le... then she considering to join us... in the end we bluff her tat we going city hall walk walk instead of go play pool... so she came...

waited for her at tiong bahru... at first wanna wait for her at red hill de... but the guys say there got no aircon... so change to tiong bahru... while waiting for lp to come, we stood at the last door of the train there... then peeped out onto the track there... was pitch black there lor... then we started to crap bout seeing someone walk out frm the track there... was a bit freaked out cos it's really scary if it happens...

after lp reach, she so poor thing lor... kana bullied by sp and jq... they keep suaning her... but quite funny if u r a onlooker...

went to walk walk at city link mall... went to the singtel shop first... cos alvin wanna see the phones... then got the person to take the real one let us see... anyway, the person who serve us look like kangyu lor... but he's service very gd... wat ever we ask he also check for us...

after tat went to ig's heaven or something like tat de la... cos sp they all went to breadtalk then me and lp wanna go tat shop... so we went in... bought a new pair of earrings and a key chain... the key chain very cute... and it's only 3.90... hehehe...

went hmv cos lp wanna go see ken hirai's cd... in the end we spent too much time there until me alvin and sp buai tahan... then went off first to d-siao lp and jq... the two of them har... didn't even realised we went off le... we shop finish the addidas store then they called... so waited there for them before going to suntec to eat... next time go suntec foodcourt, dun go and eat the duck rice stall... the uncle there har... attitude so damn bad de... got me so pissed off... ate almond longan as dessert despite my cough... end up now become worse le... hahaha throat so itchy then kept coughing like shit...

went to play pool after tat... at first lp say dun wanna play... then in the end bluff her tat i wanna rest then ask her take over me... then played photohunt while they play... the machine cheat ppl $$ de lor... the time nv restart de...

ok la... tat's all la... my mum chasing me go change to go my cousin's wedding le... will update again tonight...

ciaoz...

wat a boring christmas weekend... nothing much was done... basically my weekend consist of watching tv, clearing my table and more tv... damn sian lor...

argh... just wondering how much mucus can one produce... all these nose blowing is killing me... blow until i become dizzy... then got serious blocked ears as well... argh... think might go see doc one of these days before my cousin's wedding... argh argh argh argh... dun feel like going to doc... anyone got any other methods to recommend?

anyway, went shopping with my sis after sch today... nv buy anything la... go there is become loan shark only... loan $$ to my sis... wahahaha...

haiz... dunno wat to say le... shall end here...

ciaoz...

merry christmas to all reading my blog... wahahaha...

this is the most boring xmas i've ever spent... for the past few years, every xmas wud be spent at xj's hse... but this year, it's so diff... everyone is so busy with their own programmes... those got bf de pei bf, those without de got some other activities... it's like our tradition of meeting for xmas is broken le lor... no xmas gifts this year... sob sob... think next year wun go le... go also like extra like tat... anyway, better start frm this morning la...

this morning spent a lot of time preparing to go out... at first tot wud be late for sch de... end up i was super early... purposely missed one train at wdl but still reach dover too early... so decided to go buy sweets for the class... first present was received frm hf... it was choc... second present was frm mabel... this is more special cos u can't buy it anywhere de... it's choc tat she made specially for us... after lesson, went to suntec... at first tot can eat something good since it's christmas... but then most of us quite broke le... so end up eating at the food court there... hahaha... had to go off earlier cos meeting sid they all at wdl at 1430... but told them we wud be late le... so still not so bad la...

went to meet them at cwp... those present were xj, jh, sid, stan, ml, by, jc, hf and me... already count as quite pathetic le... i sit there so sian lor... it was as if i'm a new classmate tat hf brought to the gathering... had the feeling tat i'm being left out in all the conversation lor... dun feel very welcomed there like tat... dunno la... hate this feeling and it makes me just dun feel like going to this kinda gathering anymore... maybe the next one i shall just not go... see how first la...

haiz... this is such a bad xmas... felt quite sad la...

wat a sad and lonely way to celebrate my xmas...

pathetic me...

tsk tsk...

ciaoz...

argh... think my ear drums going to spoil in the next few days... kept having ear blocks... all bcos of my flu cum sore throat... nv go see doc despite so many days le... cos keep thinking so many days le might heal on its own... but the strange thing is tat the mucus will only block my nose at certain times in the day... then my nose now hurt like mad... all these blowing and coughing is making me dizzy... argh... when can heal?? dun wanna see doc leh... see doc waste $$...

anyway, got good news... i cut my hair today... wahahahaha... finally cut my hair after saying tat i wanna cut it for so long le... hahahaha... tat hairdresser cut my fringe until quite short... short until it's tat kind tat kids have... those slightly above eyebrow de... then the first person i saw say i look like a fox... the fox in inuyasha ba... by the name of shippo... tell my sis le she say really look like shippo... hahaha... but i quite like this hairstyle la... then this is really a very gd salon... all stylists inside also very gd de... if anyone wanna go cut hair, go there cut... it's esp cheap during weekdays... okok... the salon is at jurong entertainment centre... got chance go there cut... really gd... the name of the salon is beauty reveal i think...

anyway, gtg watch tv le... might sleep early tonight too...

ciaoz...

finally one week of sch has past... fell sick on the last day of the week... kana fever, blocked nose, blocked ears and sore throat... now my neck is aching like mad... then this morning blow my nose until got blood in the mucus... my mum got a scare... but nv go see doc la... see how first... if tml or mon still like tat then go see doc...

well... this one week nothing much happened la... had lessons... tutorials all end super early... except for FMA... lecturers are all generally ok la... quite funny at times... none look too fierce... then my lc lecturer look like pan ling ling... really look like her lor... if got chance will take her pic let u all see...

aiya.. i think i now blur until i dunno wat i typing le... got chance update again...

ciaoz...

oops... i'm the odd one out... wahahaha... supposed to be formal pic with me being the "coach" of a "swimming team"... 

forgot wat i told them le... looks like i'm telling a joke? 

wanlin the story teller... 

;P here goes the bunny ears... wahahaha... 

aiya... unsuccessful bunny ears... 

here's a grp pic... frm front: jh, jc... middle row(frm left): by, hf, wh, me... last row(frm left): stan, sid, sc's bf... 

WAT?? see wat see? 

a bbq scene... 

here's a pic taken during my chalet... 

just feel tat i'm suddenly very very tired... just so tired of my jealousy...

super confused feelings now... i dunno if i've really got over cf... at times, i just had the feeling tat maybe the breakup was the best for us...

the following tat i'm bout to say might change ur opinion of me... but it's really wat i think now tat it's over... the thing is i think me and cf got together in the first place is tat we both wanted to experience how it is like to be in love... but i dunno if we really like each other... in my case, now tat i think back, i'm as if in a relationship with him only for the sake of being in love with love itself and not with the person...

however, if tat is so, y did it still hurt so much to see and hear bout his news... i dunno... i really dunno...

damn... argh... y am i so easily shedding my tears again...

just saw his prom pics... he had taken with quite a few gers and all like so... i dunno wat to say... argh... just when the hell will i be able to face this with a calm heart... do i still have some part of me with him... or is it just my ego tat's acting... the part of me tat doesn't wish tat he got attached before me or the part tat wished tat he wud return for me... i dunno... i really dunno...

argh... stupid dumb ass of relationship... argh argh argh argh!!!!! bloody hell... hate this kind of feelings... when will i be able to get rid of it... i really admire those ppl who can move on with their life fast...

sometimes i wonder if he had really got over it... is there any part of me tat he might still be missing, thinking of me at times... but i dun think so... or maybe tat he wanna let me have the time to forget him? i dun think tat's quite possible de lor... how could anyone forget the person he or she had spent some memories with de... if really there's a memory eraser, i wanna erase off this memory... though there's a lot of sweet times, silly times... but at times, it's just too painful for me to bear...

though i sometimes wish tat i had another shoulder to rely on... but i dun think i'll just go into a relationship tat fast... dun think i'll be able to stand another blow le... it's too painful... really very painful...

argh... vent out my feelings le now much better... ppl who read this entry, pls keep it to urself... i dun wanna let him know how i'm feeling bout this... thx...

go sleep le...

ciaoz...

hahaha... dunno how to start this entry...

well... went for spac2go's anniversary yesterday... muz say tat all went well yesterday... had so much fun and laughter... but most of all, the whole spac2go had a fun time saboing km and hf... wahahaha... it's really so damn fun... then serene is so cute and funny... wahahahaha... hard to put down in words here... if u wanna know, ask me personally... hehehe...

well... so damn tired today... sianz also... cos tml sch reopen le... argh... tat's the end of my hols... but nvm la... timetable quite slack... so not very stress...

ok la... muz go tidy my table soon le... still as messy as ever... wahahahaha....

ciaoz...

wahahaha... finally back from my chalet... hehehe...

was so fun despite not seeing each other for so long... not bad la... but only slept for a few hours for both days...

shall start frm:

8th dec ==>
got main com meeting at 0930... slept late the night before and then got up damn early in the morning... packed my bag only in the morning... so have to get up early...

reach clubrm at 0930 sharp... was the early few thou i was on time... end up the meeting started only at 1000 plus... then was told tat angelvin will join us for the meeting... at first the meeting atmosphere was fun... then when she came in, the atmosphere suddenly became tense... no one spoke much... let her tok most of the time... once she got out of the place, all became relaxed again...

after the meeting, went down to ccgc to help hf... cos angelvin wans her to change lotza stuff... so went to help... in the end only left sch at bout 1 plus... was supposed to meet ml at bugis... but she was not ready yet... so we go pasir ris and wait for her there... end up reach chalet at 3 plus i think...

by the time we reached there, cf they all already cleaned the chalet and was waiting for our arrival... wahahaha... we like da pai ppl like tat... walk into the chalet still got ppl video tape us... wahahaha... then watched their prom nite's video tat cf recorded... after tat chit chat with them for a while then start to prepare for the bbq... wh came before the bbq... then after tat sc and valli came... with sc's bf... he was a national swimmer... not bad la... they both got couple look oh... heheheh... was happy tat she found her happiness... had fun at the bbq...

at 2330, watched inuyasha... found out tat stan also got watch... so watched together... after tat start to play cards...

9th dec ==>
wh, hf and nuriah went to sleep first... then the rest of us were playing... play until morning... then sc and sid cannot tahan le... but sc can't sleep in the ger's rm cos the sleeping area was occupied by the 3 of them le... so end up she slept at the guys' area with us playing there... then we played until 0630... then wanted to watch sunrise... but the sun already rise de... so end up went back to chalet... slept at the guys' area... then cf and jc started to whistle... actually sound quite nice la...

at bout 0900 plus... i really cannot tahan le... cos the guys' area is so damn hot... the bed also traps heat... so end up going back to the rm and woke wh they all up... but they cannot fall asleep le... so me, ml and sc got the bed to ourselves... sleep until so shiok... but they went breakfast they nv call us... then nv ta bao for us also... when they came back frm breakfast then they woke me and ml up... cos sc alrealy went to pick up her bf... tat time was already 1200 le... then they say they wanna go wild wild wet... end up cf treat us gers there... cos we got no $$ le... but they guys wanna go cos got no chance le... going ns soon... went there at 1215... then cf become like our papa like tat... buy the entry card for us, then help us look after the bags while we play...

we went to the kids' pool first... then after tat went to wave pool... then went to queue for a slide... but the gers all cannot play cos we wearing t-shirt... only got to know tat rule when it was bout our turn le... so in the end, the gers went to queue for another slide tat uses floats while the guys continue with the one without float de... ours was so fun... but was quite slow la... cos not enough weight... after the guys also came down frm the same one, we switched... guys mix with gers... end up me, ml, wh, nuriah and by took one float while hf, jc, sid and stan took the other one... a diff of hf and by makes wonder... our ride became so damn fast and fun...

after tat went to one slide like pirate ship like tat... cos the slide was 2 at a time, but by dun wanna go... so end up me and wh went together... let her sit back facing the down side so she wun be so scared... in the end i was like nearly flying out le lor... it was so steep... but was the best one tat i took... we play and play until 4 plus... then went to shower... hair was like damn dry le... but nv bring conditioner...

had another bbq at night... then after hf say km coming and wanna go fetch him le, me, sid, ml and yl went to downtown east with her... cos we scared she lost her way... then shun bian buy water and alcoholic drinks... got a bottle for myself... then found tat even i drink the whole bottle, my rashes is not as bad as before le... wahahahaha... so happy... cos it means i can drink alcoholic drinks le...

tat nite so fun... was playing card games with km, cf and stan... then end up sleeping at 3 plus... but before we sleep, cf kept asking km questions, not wanting to let him sleep... wahahahaha... was so funny lor... but i too physically and mentally tired le... so i fell asleep pretty soon...

10th dec ==>
woke up at 0730 by hf's alarm... tat ger har... set alarm dun wanna put it somewhere near her... woke everyone sleeping at the living rm up... then still dun wanna get up until me and km keep poking her... fell back to sleep cos i only wanna wake up at 0800... in the end can sleep much so start preparing and packing my things... tot i took everything le... but halfway back to sch, i realised i nv take my jacket... then hf help me msg them ask them take for me then i go collect frm them...

reached sch at 0925... then went t14 to print result and timetable... by the time we slack finish there, we reached saa at the time of the meeting... nearly fell asleep during the meeting... then still need to go finance to pay the adv fund... after meeting got dragged to go eat... but wait and wait until i pek chek... then end up going hm...

reach hm then went to sleep without eating... second day i went without breakfast and lunch le...

slept frm 3 plus all the way till 8 plus... was woken up by ryan... cos my mum say i come hm then nv play with him before sleeping... then he wanna play with me... so keep disturbing me...

ok la... end here le... wanna go sleep le...

ciaoz...

here's a pic i finally got frm alex... it's taken on the day of the nyaa award ceremony ages ago... 

haiz... dunno y but feel tat i'm not at all a gd fren... as in i'm bad at maintaining a frenship... think i'm just a pathetic idiot with no real fren...
all my frenships seem to die off the minute i dun see my frens or we got separated... it has always been like tat since young... just dun understand y i can't be like my sis they all... even thou nv see each other for so long le still got lotza things to say to their frens...

argh!!! i just sucks to the core when making frens... damn... dunno how i'm gonna survive in the working world...

can imagine my life when i go out into the working world... everyday wake up, go to work, after work, go hm... shit man... it's damn pathetic lor... yet... haiz... dunno la... just so frustrated with myself... it's not tat i'm dao or wat... but once say i got into another class frm my fren le then will just stop toking to each other de...

haiz... wanna go out with my frens... but dunno y everyone is so damn busy tat i can't find anyone out other than lp... dun even know wat they r busy with...

argh... dun mind me... just a pathetic idiot trying to jot down her frustration... ARGH!!!!!!!!

think if this goes on... i'll have to go to a hun ying jie shao suo in the future to know more ppl... hahahahaha...

sian sian sian sian....

beginning to hate the hols... heng only one week to go...

ciaoz...

hahaha... something strange happened today... someone added me in friendster in the name of sp... so strange... how wud he or she knows i'm in sp?

was asked by hf to go to sch help her with the ccgc library... then after the whole thing end, went to eat at cck with her... went to eat sushi... wahahahaha... so long nv go eat le... then we were both thinking of eating sushi for dinner... finally get to chat with her for such a long time... all the way frm 6 plus to 9 plus... wahahahaha... so long nv tok with her le... cos she always so busy with km... bleax ;P wahahahaha....

short entry today... gonna watch inuyasha le... hehehe... anyway, anyone who saw inuyasha comics, pls tell me where got sell... the chinese name for it is "quan ye cha"... dog tat "quan", night tat "ye" and fork tat "cha"... wahahaha...

ciaoz...