urgh!!! this is getting so stupid!!

why muz they involve the yr 3s? can't they just leave us alone? we're busy enough bout our studies le... it's not as if we'll still be in sch for another 2 years or so lor... pls la... teach us le also no use lor... tootz leh...

u muz be wondering wat i'm toking bout... it's my stupid cca la... the officer want us to learn some stupid programme that the sch has so that it can aid us in counselling ppl... pls lor... who dunno how to use the bloody programme? just anyhow explore la... some bloody asshole who told her tat he/she dunno how to use... are u really tat dumb tat u dunno wat is call explore the programme on ur own? bloody hell lor... get the whole club into trouble... then she also so strange... ask the yr 2 to learn can le wat... they learn then they can pass down the knowledge... we already leaving le still want us to learn... wat a waste of resources and ppl's time... can't they just have a booklet on how to use the damn bloody programme? if i'm not doing project tml still nvm... but the damn bloody thing is tat i need to do my project tml and the time clashes... it's my final yr project lor... whether i get out of poly depends a lot on this leh... bloody helll...

argh... i think i shall just pon it tml... heck liao la... anyway i already say before le... dun expect me to be as committed as before... now just let me enjoy life after the 1 yr in committee... no point being so active le... to be practical and say it in a frank way, there is no way i can get a dist in cca... i'm not tat mad... an A is enough... secondly, i'm no longer in committee le... so when u all need help then find me... otherwise dun make me go for this kind of stupid training... learning a programme? hahahaha... pls lor... my IT programmes all pick up on my own one lor... and somemore this kind of programme is for ppl with low IT literacy also can use de lor... just explore and find the button to click la... wat's so difficult? bloody hell... if i ever know who is tat bloody idiot tat told ms angelvine tat they dunno how to use the programme, i'll really knock sense and some BASIC IT skills tat this person dun possess into him/her...

argh argh argh!!!! BLOODY HELLL!!!!

time is precious... i shall not waste any time on stupid things... studies is my priority now... cca is only second... so watever tat is going to clash, i'd go for studies related... heck to cca le...

finish venting my anger le... thx for reading...

ciaoz...

just finished reading my sis's blog... hahahaha... feel so inspired to write an entry like hers... wahahahaha...

anyway, not really possible la.. my eng not as pro as hers... hahahaha...

just love drinking milk... milk is gd for health... tasty and healthy...

wahahahahha... some ppl might think i'm very health concious... but i'm not... just tat i love eating fruits and drinking milk... i love eating junk food also...

eating is a big part of my life... and i dun exercise... wahahahahaha.... tat explains y i look like tat... wahahahahaha...

think i'm going mad le...

can't wait for tml... finally can start on bd proper le since dbf ppl come back frm their itp...

going to start play the inuyasha game my bro managed to dl for me... wahahahahaha.... hopefully can agar agar play cos it's in jap....

ciaoz...

hahahaha... finally i'm here...

at first dun intend to blog de... but have to la... cos need to change something also... hahahhaha... so here i am...

ok... just a hopefully quick update...

spent the whole sunday making dumplings... freaking tired and the kitchen is so bloody hot... but had a nice time... cos nan de can do something together with my mum and my dad... hahahaha... although not my whole family is at hm... but it's fun making dumplings with my parents and my bro... it's not everyday tat i can to do things and interact alot with my dad...

mon nothing special... just tat i went to meet my bd grp... not bad la... thou i'm the only ger... but nvm la... i also quite boyish de... on our way there, alvinwas psychoing jq to follow us since we're early... then in the end, jq really come... hahahaha... but he eat finish his icecream then he went off le la... cos by tat time, andy already reach le...

had generally quite a gd time with my grp... luckily they're all very friendly ppl la... just tat andy is more to the quiet side la... but this is only the first meeting lor... i also very quiet there... but those of u who know me well shld know tat i super noisy de...

went hm together with bryan since we both taking the same line... at first still scared will be quite strange cos got it's only the first time we've interacted... but it turns out tat we got alot of things to tok about... hahahaha... thx to the common frens tat we have...

today nothing much la... just tat somehow i still feel tat one of those tat i was once closed to seem to be avoiding me... i dunno wat's wrong la... maybe it's my way of thinking or my behaviour tat annoys you... but u can just tell me de lor... dun like it when ppl just keep giving me cold shoulder out of a sudden... i dunno wth is going on lor... sry if u think i might know... but in actual fact, i'm super slow in realizing things de lor...

after sch went to clubrm to slack with hf... so long nv have a proper chance to tok to her alone le lor... then went to watch them play tennis until 0515 when i have a meeting at 0500... hahahahha... time really flies... now it's time to plan the next year 1 training le... i at first kena the post of treasurer de... in the end they say since i got so many ideas on saboing ppl, they put me as the game master... sianz lor... have to find bonding games le... anyone got any game to intro to me?? hehehe... just feel free to email them to me or drop msges on my tagboard bout it...

after meeting, went back to watch hf they all play tennis... can't go hm yet cos their things in the clubrm and the key's with me... so end up waiting until 7 plus... then went hm with hf, km and jasper... but nv go eat with them cos my mum cooked and i too tired to go la... hahahaha...

okok... this is the impt part of this entry...

ppl reading my blog...
if u all dun like the way i behave or think, basically anything bout me tat u dun like or can't agree with de hor...
pls dun just nv tok to me then start giving me cold shoulders hor...
i very open to suggestion and criticism de...
by telling me, u're actually helping me lor...
u'll be able to let me know where and when i'm stepping over the line so tat i dun become overboard lor...
if u dun like the way i behave and shy to tell me directly in fear of hurting me or our frenship for eg, pls tell someone close to me... so tat i can at least go find out frm them...
anyway, if u really treat me as a fren, u shldn't mind if u'd hurt my feelings or not... true frens will tell you things tat you dun wanna hear de...
i wun accept you breaking this frenship without a vilid reason de... muahahahaha...

anyway, tat's bout all la... dun wanna tell me wat's wrong with me straight to my face, u have the alternatives of dropping it on my tagboard or email me... u want slow mail i also dun mind de... hahahaha...

ciaoz...

finally one wk has ended...

i think i really like my timetable a lot... wahahaha... cos i got a long wkend!! friday no need to go sch... yeah!!

this whole wk was cca wk in sch... went there whenever i got the time... then did my duty on tues... one thing i can conclude... this kind of things hor... cannot put 3 seniors together de... cos all 3 will slack together... hahahaha... just like me, florence and eugene... went there again on wed... this time go there with mabel, jac and ly... hahahaha... so funny lor... the 4 of us trying to act like freshies... and there are actually ppl who believe... this shows tat kids nowadays look very chao lao... really lor... this new batch of yr 1 hor... u cannot tell the diff between them and the yr 2s and 3s... this time round, the four of us managed to bluff our way to balloons!! hahahaha... we each(except for ly) got a flower balloon each... wahahahaha...

anyway, mon and thurs got bd... then my grp i'm the only ger, then only me and alvin are frm dba... the rest all dbf de... not bad la... bd lesson is a time for me to look at guys... wahahaha... cos got quite a bit of shuai ge in tat class...

went bowling with my class ppl... the guys so pro... hahahaha... i bloody lousy de lor... hahahaha... dun think i ever scored more than 90 ba... shows how bad i am... saw this guy... not bad looking de... and his bowling is so pro... wahahahaha... nan de got ppl will make me turn my head twice de... hahahahaha...

okok... this is a very impt part of this entry... wahahahaha... for those who recently visited my blog, u'd notice tat i've changed my song frm rick price's "only heaven know" to queen's "i was born to love you"... this song has now become my favourite!! wahahahaha... was watching jap drama "pride" starring takuya kimura!! wahahaha.. he so drop dead handsome... he's so cool when his playing ice hockey!! gosh... he's good no matter wat he's acting as... hairdresser, pilot, ice hockey player, pianist, public prosecutor.... any roles also he's gd... pride is really a nice show u all should watch if possible...

tat's how i spent my fri... watching pride... hahahaha... of cos still got go bank, play with lil ryan and bring him to the library lah... but the show made up majority of my day...

today was spent watching tv, helping my mum preparing the ingredients to make the dumpling tml...

so... tat's all for my entry la...

ciaoz...

sometimes i wonder if one is born to be a loner... well... tat seems to be the case for me... is my ren yuan really tat bad? hmmm... just dunno... sometimes i feel like i'm very left out... i'm i being pai chi? or i'm i really tat bad a person tat i dun have a single soul mate, someone who understands me very well?

maybe cos i'm never popular... never was there once when we were to do project tat ppl will wan me in their grp de... i think there's a big flaw in my character ba... no one is willing to really befriend me and do things with me... there was never once when i'm the centre of attention and the leader... i was ALWAYS the FOLLOWER... just hate tat lor...

i think even if i'm gone one of these days also not many ppl will notice ba...

sometimes i just dunno why ppl can change so fast... or maybe cos i'm the one resisting changes ba... i'd always drift away from my frens de... it's a ALWAYS... the most i give it is one yr... one yr after beginning of being in diff class, all my frens wud drift away frm me... even when we met up with each other, i'd nv have the chance to speak up... like in the case of my sec sch gatherings... it'd nv be me who have the chance to speak... and whenever i rarely got this chance, i'd always be interupted by someone de... it's ALWAYS like tat... and i bloody well absolutely HATE to be interupted... when i'm interupted, i'd rather keep quiet and do the listening... how can anybody hear a songle thing if everyone is toking at the same time? so sacrifice and keep quiet lor... bo bian wat... some ppl is just so inconsiderate de lor... nv wait for ppl to finish then interupt...

i think i dun have a lot of frens... those who i count as frens now i dun think will be so after this year lor... they'd as usual move to the mere acquaintance category le...

there are really many ppl who'd come in and out of ur life... these ppl are just mere acquaintances... they are not frens... frens are ppl whom without telling them, would notice tat u are not happy, notice tat u are not present during lesson and would offer to lend u their notes for the lesson tat u miss without u asking for it...

i know i'm single now... but tat does not mean tat u cannot tok to me about the ups and downs of ur relationship... it's true tat i dunno how to give gd advices... but i'd always be there to lend u my ears and even my shoulders de lor...

i know i live in a very happy family and have not been through wat u ppl in problem family experience... but still, if u need someone to grumble ur grouses to, i'd always be there de lor... even though i really cannot give advices on this area... a frenship doesn't work one way... it takes two to clap.... i dun wan a frenship where there's only me complaining to the other party... i want a frenship whereby the other party also complains to me... but... i'm i not trustworthy? maybe some of u might say so ba... but i dun think i'm so... if u label things as secret, i can swear across my heart tat no one else will ever hear about it unless u tell them... like tat time when i went abroad with the 3 guys... wat they made me promise not to tell, i really nv say a single thing out... until the ger ask me if it's true... cos one of u already spill the beans le...

although i admit, i'm not someone who can keep alot of things to myself... tat i always tok to someone to let out all my grouches, but usually those are things tat happened to me, and not wat other ppl told me...

all i ask for is to be treated as a fren... not just mere acquaintance... is tat alot to ask for? is it? really very tired of all these le... why muz ppl have feelings? why can't ppl just be heartless and just go on with their life without the emotional baggage attached... i'm just getting tired... really tired of this... should i just seal myself off from all these feelings? these feelings of being the extra big bulky spare tyre tat is being kicked ard? maybe i wun feel this sad and disappointed if i just seal myself off frm this world... i doubt anyone wud even care if i do so... i was nv impt anyway...

really hate this frenship prob... it's changing me frm being optimistic to being pessimistic which is very bad...

just hope this rough patch of life would end soon...

anyway, thx for reading my grouches... really appreciated it tat u took time off to even bother to read my blog... i'm now much better after saying things out le... and i wanna thx alvin and jq for showing ur concerns for me today... really makes me feel much better... and also to those who did not pretend tat i dun exist today... ur aknowledgement of my existence makes it worthwhile...

just hoping tat i wun appear puff eyed tml...

ciaoz...

itp finally end le... sch's starting....

kinda miss my collegues at misc... hahahaha... anyway, muz update again....

wed...
nothing much... work as usual...

thurs...
pei hf and lp order their things during lunchtime... they both intend to give kuah lapis and egg tarts to the collegues at misc during the last day...

was rather pissed off by this action of their's... just dun understand lor... usually if got a few ppl attached to a coy for intern they'd usually share to buy things for the collegues... but the thing is the 2 of them insisted on buying on their own... i know they really helped us alot during the period of attachment... but the thing is u are not earning alot frm them and if u wanna treat them on ur own, wat about those who wanna treat yet dun have tat much money to treat on their own? and if all four of us treat them individually, how wud they ppl in the coy be able to finish it all? pls la... spare a tot for them lor... tat time 2 ppl treat at a time already so many of them complain le lor... imagine this time is the four of us treat together... who wud be able to finish... and it's after lunch also lor... i mean pls la... lunch already made ppl so bloody full le lor... go back office still have to eat wat u give them... u think they pig ar?

okay okay... vented enough le... time to carry on... since they both wanna treat on their own, so nvm lor... in the end i share with shimei... a choc cake... and we decided to give them before lunch... so tat they'd have no excuse but to take...

fri...
gave them the cake the first thing in the morning... gave shimei's dept followed by mine... cos these two are top piorities... shirlin they all at first wanna reject de... but i force them to take... muahahaha...

tok to my supervisor while we were still giving out the cake... then see his mood so happy faster gave him my log bk... hehehe... in the end, i think he first time mark ppl log bk lor... still ask me if he need to give kevin ma... so funny lor... then in the end, susie pass by... then she so de siao one lor... cos i only give him all at once ma... the hf is those tat gave her supervisor every week de... so susie told him tat we are supposed to give our suspervisor our log bk every week de... make me so pai sei in front of him lor... cos he ask me how come he nv every week get it...

work was much more than the past few days... non-stop de... hahahaha... occasional breaks were when lp is still waiting for her performa to end, and shimei waiting to use the fax machine... on one of those breaks, lp's dept so sweet de lor... they really dote her like their own kid like tat... will crack jokes to entertain her, tok to her and side her when there's trouble de... then they're the first dept tat gave her things lor... they long planned today le...

just before lunch, lp came and ask me if we wanna join her dept in having lunch... she say they wanna treat us... then ask where we wanna go and eat... in the end, during lunchtime, they still book a mini bus bring us to bukit merah there eat lor... so nice of them... mr kumar, mr sim, mas, jeffery, roz and the receptionist...

my biggest surprise was after lunch... at first still tot tat my dept will not do anything de... but after i came back from lunch, wendy came up to my table and passed a bag to me... then she say tat is something the four of them, wendy, shirlin, emily and crystal share to give me de... so sweet of them lor... i was so touched by them...

then shortly after tat, susie came and gave me something also... was very surprise... then hf say cos susie told her tat everyone deserves something...

work as usual... then hf and lp start to give their things...

near the end of the day then kevin appear... shimei wanted to give him the cake de... but hf dun wanna go yet... she wanted to finish all her work before going... made shimei so pissed off... in the end, kevin called us into his rm... so scary lor... majiam u do something wrong the day u left like tat... hahaha... end up being him wanna tok to us the final time before we go off... then the coy still give us a $50 robinson voucher each... he still took down our contacts... so tat next time if they need part-timers they can contact us... hahaha... hope whenever they need part-timer they'd look for us... then i no need look for job le... hehehe...

anyway, met mabel they all for dinner... thou hf got go, but i went off first... cos need to take laptop frm my sis and hf still wanna do ot for the coy on her last day.... no wonder she can get her A for itp...

anyway, life's always unfair... same supervisor, scared will bias... diff supervisor, diff grading standard... i dun deny tat i'm jealous of her getting an A while i got a B... tat's life... and life really sucks...

anyway, chat alot with them during dinner... but i think mostly is hf toking to alvin la... felt quite bad... cos all three of us are in shipping line and then they kept toking bout the time in shipping line... think mabel felt rather left out lor... so i also nv tok much la... since the 2 of them wanna tok then let them do so lor...

when we're leaving, hf was saying bout something tat ppl of the same blood grp have similar thinking... i think i totally agree with in man... i really starting to not being able to stand blood grp o ppl's way of thinking le lor... hahahaha... wonder how many ppl tat i know has blood grp b... think blood grp b is a grp of rather rare type of blood... cos majority of ppl tat i know has blood grp o... o is the most common of all the ppl i've met lor... now i only know mabel is also same as me, we're blood grp b de...

anyway, if u find it hard to understand this entry dun fret... cos i'm just typying watever tat comes into my mind... so u are really reading my tots as i type this...

anyway, shld go off le... tml sch starting... and now i'm not even sure of wat i'm typing le... hahahaha...

ciaoz...

hahaha... now got stupid show on channel 8... so lame de...

anyway, time to update since i nv managed to come online as often le...

think my memory getting shorter and shorter le... like watever happened today i'll forget it tml le...

ok... back to topic...

sun...
went to meet sid they all at yishun mrt at 1330... cos going to ms chen's hse... hahahaha... so nan de still can be close to my sec 2 form teacher...

saw no one when i reach the mrt station... tot i got the time wrong... end up it's not tat i'm early... but i totally missed sc and sq...

at first we planned to go fish and co have dinner after going her hse de... but in the end they decided to go somewhere less crowded and gurantee got place for a big grp... end up deciding to go villiage at china square central... it's a marche style restaurant... had a fun time playing with her son and toking with all of them... some i see more often, others more nan de come out...

activity ended quite late... was so tired by the time i got hm tat i got the idea of fang lp their ge zi... hahaha...

mon...
super tired day... at first plan to meet lp they all at 1000 de... but everyone so tired tat we shifted the timing to 1130 at harbour front... yup tat's right, we going sentosa to suntan...

woke up later than i wanted... then when i wanna go out le my mum bought lunch for me... so bo bian have to eat... luckily wasn't the latest there... alvin arrived at bout the same time as i did... so went to find them after tat... dilly dally until one plus then reach sentosa...

hahahaha... had a fun time tanning... managed to have quite gd tan... cos wearing my bikini... then really nan de got so free time to sit under the sun and relax....

by five or six plus, we made our way back to mainland... had our dinner at banquet at harbourfront... tok a lot of things...

after tat, mabel gave us a chanel file each... she so sweet lor... still wrote a personalised note for all of us...

well... frm tues until now always the same la... work work work... just tat this week, the workload start to get less le... i got so much free time to slack and do my logbk...

oh ya.. tat reminds me, my main motive switching on the com is to do my logbk de... argh....

ok la... end here le... until sch begins...

ciaoz...

finally... one last week till the end of itp... and it's only a four days week... yeah!!!

hahahaha...
but i'm starting to worry bout my logbk... have'nt written a single thing... die le lar...

long wkend wasted... today slack too much, tml going sec sch gathering, mon going sentosa suntan... no time no time!!! hahahahaaha...

quite excited bout tml and mon... heng my medication will end tml morning... ar bo a lot of things cannot eat...

okay... think some of u blur le... lemme update u for a while...

i fell sick on mon... only slight sore throat on tat day la... then on wed it worsen until i can't swallow anything... in the end, thurs morning woke up to a swollen neck and chin... cos of sore throat and the swelling of my mouth floor... end up toking like i got serious short tongue prob...

so bo bian took off on tat day... went to see my doc... hahahaha... his medicine really work wonder... thou he not too sure wat cos the swelling of my mouth floor... but now, my sore throat is gone, so has all the swellings... hahahahaha... i think cos i've been going to him since young ba... he checked my records tat day... hahahaha... had been going to him since i was 1+ yrs old... i think it's better to see a gp than a specialist doc when u are still a kid... cos most specialist only have med for kids until 12 yr old.... then no point... cos after tat have to change doc and the new doc wun have any reference to ur med history... then might end up prescribing a sensitive med... so i dun think it's gd...

anyway, wannna go watch the cock show le...

ciaoz...

had a super fun day today...

left office at bout 0900 for psa... hahahaha... went to tanjong pagar terminal today... cos the ship docked there... was very leh chey cos still muz go the complex to get a pass before going in... the pass very cute... still need to take pic de... better than air cargo terminal de... if got time, i'll scan it and post it up here for u all to see...

anyway, went circling the place cos we cannot anyhow u-turn... went up the vessel... so bloody high lor... then the steps quite shaky... went to take a look at the bridge... got some intro by the captain and his assistant... surprisingly, his assistant is a rather young man... then something funny happened lor... the assistant was explaining something to us when kevin and kumar said tat while the assistant explained, all the ladies were more interested in looking at him than listening to him... then went to the captain's rm, the captain's dinning area and the kitchen... saw how they lived onboard and how the containers are being loaded and unloaded... super fun...

we also went to the empty container yard... managed to take some pics of the diff containers and even spoilt ones...

after the visit, kevin our manager, treated us to lunch... nice nice cos all spicy de... but poor lp nv get to eat much...

worked as usual after tat... but lp got called into kevin's rm... so stunned sia... tot she got into trouble... but it's all bcos of ignorant ppl frm the accounts dept...

after work went shopping at cwp... cos no one at hm and i nv bring my keys out... waste so much $$ buying junk food... hahahaha... think i really going to grow very fat soon...

back at hm now... wanna go sleep soon... cos working tml...

additional: dun u find tat sometimes listening to a song helps u to relax and even recall some sweet memories? hahaha... just found some really nice songs tat brings back memories... hahahaha... all thx to winson who sits opp me in office... he always tuned in to gold 90fm... hahahaha... so everyday i'm listening to oldies... the song tat u all hear is heaven knows by rick price... it's a song tat i always listen to when i'm in pri 4... hahaha... tat's ages ago le... hearing this song brings me back to the time when me, my er jie and my bro were in his rm, on the aircon and do our hw after sch... such a nice period of time... really love this song... another one is the soundtrack of long vacation... really relaxing... listening to it really felt like u are in the middle of a long vacation...

ok... needa go sleep le...

ciaoz...

yeah!!! hahahaha... i'm so surprised... i actually didn't fail any modules at all!!! wahahahaha...

so bloody happy now... hahahahaha... results are all in my expected range... except for pdwm and tqm of cos...

hahahaha... wanna know my results? (dun wan can dun read de...)

tqm - dist
hrm - b
csb - b
tms - b
pdwm - c
fma - c+

wahahahaha... still so stunned tat i'd even have a dist in my results... at least this time the minimum is a c... not too bad la... considering tat i nv study hard for all exams... so my disappointment is not tat bad... hahahaha... actually there's no disappointment at all la... tok cock only...

gtg... inuyasha starting soon...

ciaoz...

wow... so long nv blog le...

been quite busy these days... really life is filled with work and tuition...

ok... i'm escaping frm reality now... got to check my results... yet i dun wanna do it...

blog finish this entry first... before my results managed to spoil my mood...

these few days quite nice... mon wendy didn't come... so end up emily giving me work... i prefer emily to give me work than shirlin... hehe... cos emily is more friendly...

working is fun when u have a lot of things to do... hahahaha... just like today... whole day do things... then wendy gave me a stack of work to be completed by the end of the day at 1655 when i'm knocking off at 1730... end up doing it super fast... hope got no errors... hahahaha...

anyway, we had a fire drill today... was quite lame la... majiam in pri and sec sch like tat... need to go out of the building and gather at the field beside the building according to the floor we work in... when we are bout to go down, i heard crystal and uncle leong saying something bout getting free gift... according to them, last time when they have fire drill, they were given pen and mineral water after tat... so cute lor... end up this time round, we were given mineral water and a water bottle... hahahaha... so cute de... still got free gift...

excited excited... hahahahaha... tml got company trip to psa, up onboard a misc vessel... and the company invited the four of us to join them... they still say tat we're very lucky cos some staff work there for more than 10 years still nv get the chance to go psa... but we're interns there and get to go with them... hahahahaha...

life is still basically the same... just tat i'm spending more and more days teaching dafinah... nearly everyday now... can't wait for next wed to come... cos it's her last paper on wed... hopefully her parents will give her a break after tat... so tat i get my break also...

anyway, just realised tat ppl near me are all having probs... family probs... death of family members... fights with family members... it's only halfway into the year and so many bad things happened... wat is becoming of this world??

ok... anyway, i've to go check my results le...

fear gripped my heart as the moment i dreaded draws nearer....

escaping reality is definitely not permanent...

sounds chim? tok big only la... hahahahaha... getting crazy le...

next entry will be blogged shortly...

ciaoz...

sianz...

getting super no life... wake up at 0600 daily, travel full 1 hr just to get to work, have lunch at 1300, got off work at 1730, reach hm an hour later... eat dinner... then go for tuition at 1905... tuition ends at 2130... by the time i got hm, it's 2200 le... watch watever i've recorded(usually "good luck") then it's time for bed...

getting more and more tired as time goes by... think i can nv do any 8 hrs job... will get damn tired...

anyway, gtg le... eyes are getting droppy...

ciaoz...

day

okay... i have a confession to make... i'm starting to dislike ppl trying to link me up with others... i.e. spreading untrue rumours... and teasing me bout it... it's slightly getting onto my nerves... pls dun tease me too much le okay? no point toking bout it when nothing is going on... my friendship with ALL my guy frens are purely platonic... dun let ur imaginations run wild and start toking nonsense... i DUN need to be linked to like half the guys in my class now... being in a relationship is currently the last thing on my mind... so pls stop hor... thx ar....

anyway, back to today... today was slacking in the morning... cos wendy got half day off... so she came in late...

know something is wrong cos this morning when we reach, wendy is not there... she's usually the early bird... end up being correct... was reading lp's cocktail book when shirlin came to me and told me tat wendy asked her to give me some work... she added wat she want me to do to wendy's pile of work... since wendy is not there, i started with shirlin's first...

halfway thru work, alvin msged me... hahahaha... so funny... cos he ask if i got a lot of work to do ma... apparently at oocl's transhipment dept, it's more hectic then misc's tanshipment dept... tat is to an intern...

after i finished with the work give, waited for a while before wendy gave me another set of work to do... to update on the containers on vessels... by the time i finished, it's 1730 le... just right time to knock off... before i packed me things, wendy told me a bad news.... tat i have to work on sat as well... sob sob... tot weekend can sleep longer... but now, still have to work... wat a cheap labour...

anyway, slacking at hm after work... cos today no tuition... so happy... 8th lesson coming soon... hahahaha...

anyway, my eyelids are getting heavy le... so i shall stop here...

ciaoz...

well well... days in itp is getting more and more... at least tat's better than nothing to do...

yesterday wendy(a colleague in transhipment) taught me how to use portnet and sealiner... she only show me one example then gave me a stack to do on my own... wat i'm supposed to do was to renominate the vessels for a particular B/L... was quite chim... but managed to grasp it after a few tries...

guess who i met on my way hm yest? i met amelia... and just right at tat station is where lp alights... anyway, went to give dafinah tuition... tuition went quite well... cos she's paying attention...

continued doing the renomination today... until lunchtime... went to the hawker centre opp harbour front... food there is super cheap and nice... until we reach the entrance of the coy then hf realised tat she lost her office access card... so in the end we back tracked and splited up... hf and lp went searching on the way to the HC while me and shi mei search the office...

in the end, we can't find it in the office... while waiting for them to come back, one of the staff came and look for us... she ask if there's a goh somebody with us... then she said tat she found her card at the HC... hf damn heng lor... she lost her MISC access card and just right got picked up by a MISC staff...

after lunch, was asked to update the excel sheets for the diff vessels and voyage... quite tedious cos have to be very careful and the format is quite diff...

beginning to think tat it's hectic working in a shipping line... cos watever u do is strongly against time and little mistakes cld be made... diff cust are also faced by the ppl working there...

did the updating frm 1415 till 1715... then went toilet with lp... hahaha... dilly dally until 1720 since they got nothing else for me to do... went to look for hf and sm when it's time to go... hahaha... nan de i'm the one to do tat cos usually i'm still doing something when they've finished for the day...

think i very dao there... cos the only few ppl i greet in the morning are the uncles sitting beside and in front of me... only cos they greet me first... my only interaction with my supervisor so far is only on the first day... for less than 2 hrs... the rest of the time, i'm sitting quietly at my table doing my work, silience only broken by the kopi auntie asking me wat i wanna drink, the visits to lp, lunchtime, visits to toilet, toking to wendy bout the work she gave me, the visits by hf when she photocopy things. the occasional work frm shirlin, the occasional small talk with the uncle beside me and of cos, after work!! super sianz lor... think i gonna get very bad grades for itp le... die lar...

super tired now... all cos i watch tv until 1200 last night... the super lag of sleep... have to get up at 0615 the latest everyday... i suspect we are the only few tat starts work so early... alvin and jac they all all starts at 0900... worst is tat i have to travel for full one hrs to work everyday, frm the north to south of sg... tat's bout across the country...

hahahaha... kuku liao... desperately need my sleep now...

ciaoz...

phew... the first day at itp finally ended...

hahahaha... was actually quite fun for me la...

reached harbour front mrt station at 0810... surprisingly, lp and hf already reach le...

so went up to the company... we damn lucky la... first day at work then met a misc employee... hahahha... just right we also going up till 11th storey... then she tapped her card for us for both the lift and the door of misc... hahahaha...

was shown into the meeting rm by ms roz... hahahaha... tok cock there while waiting for the boss to come... got our lift and entry passes too...

last person same itp coy as us de is shi mei frm class 11...

was shown the diff supervisors by the boss... then each of us got attached to a diff supervisor and department...

i was attached to the transhipment dept, lp to operations, hf to import and shi mei to export...

had a briefing frm my supervisor while waiting for wendy of transhipment dept to give me some work...

he gave me some materials bout bill of lading to read while waiting... after tat, wendy gave me my first job of the day... to help her check to confirm if the containers are recorded on both portnet system and sealiner, a program tat the coy developed... she also taught me how to use the systems... but i can't use it on my own cos i dun have an account...

work was disrupted halfway... cos the boss wanna bring us to see the big boss...

big boss office so nice... had a very very nice view of the sea... and sentosa too...

after i finished with her things, wendy asked sherlin for work to give me... in the end, sherlin put a big stack of papers for me to check... hahahaha... didn't manage to finish it today... but this is gd... cos it means i got something to do tml...

my dept still quite gd... at least got things to keep me busy... lp slacked the whole day... cos she got no desktop... so cannot contribute... hf and shi mei is more busy than i am... cos they deal with the customers directly and indirectly... then they can only make minimal mistakes... so more stress than me...

overall for today, so tired and drained of energy... but not too bad la... the coy ppl very frendly and the welfare of the staff is very gd... in the morning and mid afternoon there will be a lady pushing a trolley ard asking wat ppl wanna drink... service majiam on planes like tat...

okay la... need to go iron my clothes for tml le... then needa rest le...

ciaoz...

woohoo...

so happy today...

finally managed to get wat i wanted...

a new pair of shoes, new shirts... and a new skirt a few days ago...

hahahaha... quite guilty tat i spent so much...

hahahah... i think most ppl will get a shock if a say the price out... esp for the skirt...

hahaha... well... actually not a lot also la... the 2 shirts frm G2000 cost $59 together, the shoes frm U.R.S. inc costs $49.90 and the skirt frm mango costs $75...

but still... in total spent a LOT!! hahahah... add up is near $200...

but still... so happy cos the shoes is so nice... so are the shirts and skirt...

hehehehe...

well... gtg...

tired shopper...

ciaoz...

just read a email tat lp sent...

found something i dun really agree with...

bcos i love you, tat's why i let go of ur hand and return freedom to you...
bcos i love you, tat's why i will no longer let u feel troubled...
bcos i love you, tat's why i'd rather be sad alone...
bcos i love you, tat's why i'll force myself to leave...

i think tat's the dumbest things to do if bcos of this mentality then u break up with the other party... wat if the other party still loves u? just tat u nv notice... not only will u be hurt... but u will hurt the one who loves u even more deeply...

it hurts to love and not be loved in return... but it hurts more to not let ur feelings be known...

love is really a strange kind of feeling... but i think the most important thing is to let ur feelings be known... who knows tat if u really did, the two of u will become an item? dun live in regret tat u did not tell the other person how u feel...

true tat there's the fear of being rejected... but who knows... maybe the other person also feel the same way as u do...

hahaha... i think the best way to save ur pride and lessen the effect of being rejected is to send a "scout"... hahahaha... just someone who'd help u know how the other party feel bout u ba... to tell the truth, this is a rather useful way... esp if u r trying to find out the feeling of a ger... cos most gers wud tell each other how they feel if asked by someone they're close to...

ok... enough of this stupid issue bout love... hahahaha... getting mental again...

ciaoz...

well well...

my exams are finally over!!!

wahahahaha...

finally more free...

but...

got to give tuition to a p1 ger...

aiyo...

such a headache...

her exams are starting soon and she know nuts about wat she is studying...

how did she do her exams? well... she just put 1,2,3,4,5 for her answers... for MCQ somemore...

pengz~~

argh... got to teach her tml also...

sianz...

think i'll need to find a way to fa xie soon...

and finally notice one thing...

dun be a english teacher, esp if u are to teach lower pri... unless ur eng is super zai and can make them understand...

if i ever becomes a teacher, i'd definitely teach maths or chinese or even science... NEVER AGAIN ENGLISH!!!

ciaoz...

had the weirdest dream last night...

dreamt tat i got married... and to someone impossible to happen in real life...

hahahaha...

dunno y got this kinda dream also...

wasn't thinking bout anything like tat...

hmmm...

dreams are strange...

hahahahaha...

the dream happened on my wedding day... then was having wedding dinner... though was the "main character" there, but i was not sitting with family members... instead was sitting with my frens... hahahaha... receiving their well-wishes with my partner... surprisingly, those in my dream includes frens frm poly dayz, sec sch dayz and even pri sch dayz!! hahahaha...

then the scene suddenly change to a rm with a whole mirror wall... then i was touching up... hahahaha... remembered "scolding" the makeup artist cos she put my blusher until it's very red and uneven...

just then, got woken up by mr ryan lim...

weird dream isn't it...

hahahahaha....

ciaoz...

yes!! wahahahaha....

a success!!

finally got music up on my blog!!!

yeah!!!

hahahahahaha...

anyway, the title of the music u hear now is "The Name of Life"

hahaha... those of u who like to watch Hayao Miyazaki's work, u might find it familiar...

yup!! it's frm the anime movie "Spirited Away"!! hahahahaha...

enjoy~~

ciaoz...

basket... just put a song in for my blog... then the stupid browser dun wanna play it... grrrr.... dunno wth is wrong with it... damn...

argh argh argh!!! nvm... give up... gonna go study le...

will blog after 12 april...

wishing alvin belated bday, jq and hf early bday!!

ciaoz...

was busy with studies for the past few days... hahahaha... first time i so hardworking leh~~

well... shall blog frm tues till today...

tues...
met ty, hf, jac, mabel, lp and ly at 1030 for our csb roleplay... so dumb lor... we studying biz, in the end, we got a manufacturing situation... how we know all the machine parts wor~~ in the end, we prepare for a while, rehearse once and went to fc 1 to have lunch... hahahaha... yup... all the way frm one end of sp to the other end...

saw jianlong at fc 1... then saw a lot of spac2go juniors there also... hahahha... tat's for sure... cos most of them frm cls de...

had lunch then walk all the way back to biz block again... crazy rite? hahahha... but got too much time to spare le... in the end, we were still early for the roleplay... but tat's partly bcos ms tan is late... so the first grp started late also... but i think our grp's meeting roleplay is rather short... cos we finished in 20 min or maybe less than tat...

after the roleplay, hf, lp and me went up to the hrm tutorial rm... just rite the rm somehow nv lock... so went in to enjoy the aircon...

hrm tutorial is fun... after our grp completed the ans, i went to tok with hf they all... tat day so funny... hahahahha... someone brought a powerpuff gers' pencil case to sch... wahahahaha.... i think those in class knows who's tat... shall not name tat person here... the most funny thing is tat most ppl nv notice it... until the lecturer announce it out loud...

after tat, since she dun wanna go thru the answers yet, some of the begin to play pepsi cola at the back of the rm... hahahaha... damn funny... she still give them time to play...

after tat, time to present the ans... the first grp went up full force... then my grp also say wanna go up full force... but they very bad lor... in the end, only me and jl went up... then kana said by the lecturer and the whole class...

after tat was pdwm lecture... super short lect... cos after he go thru the syllabus and we know which is not tested, we made him stop... since the topic he's going to teach is not in the exam... hahahaha... got back our pdwm ca2 results... hahahaha... all i can say is tat i have to put in extra effort for this module...

reach hm played with ryan for a while before i take my nap... hahaha... after dinner, started doing my fma tutorial... finally figure out 1 of the question tat i cannot do last week... feel so gd to get the things rite... hahahaha...

wed...
was late for fma lect... spent most of the time copying the ans to the past year paper while toking to hf...

went to have lunch at pizza hut since hrm was released an hour earlier... hahaha... rare to have a class outing... called antony... but he not in his rm... after tat, he called us... but no one picked up the phone... hahahaha... ta bao 2 slices of pizza for him... hahahaha... cos we cannot finish it...

saw krishnan on the way back to sb... if he nv met us, he'd have forgotten bout the tutorial...

the tutorial was super short... cos he only go thru 2 questions...

since time was still early before the talks start, me and hf went to spac2go clubrm to chit chat... hahahaha... toked alot of things la... nan de tok to her like tat...

went for the talk... there's 2 tok tat day... one on bachelor of social work... the other on being SIA cabin crew... escaped off earlier to go hm with hf since we got tqm test the next day... in the end, nv manage to go hm much earlier cos raining cats and dogs in wdl... shopped ard in cwp... looked for formal biz wear since i have to wear it daily for itp... but like nothing like tat leh...

studied for my tqm test... all the way until i fell asleep at 0100...

thurs...
was late for csb minutes test... one of the last few to arrive in class.... the test so dumb... tok a lot of irrelevant things... then not clear de... such a lousy quality... tsk tsk... in the end, had to ask ard to confirm the details...

went late for tqm tutorial since it's the other class tat's presenting... hahahaha... had an early lunch before going in... he cut short the last grp's presentation... then gave a few tips before releasing us...

went to t2241 for free access... actually is just book a com to enjoy the aircon while waiting for next lesson to start...

antony's class was again super relaxed... hahahaa... today's the best man... he came in then tok cock with us... hf kept asking bout his love story... bout him and his wife... how they met etc... hahahahaha... majiam gou zai dui like tat... hahahahaha....

tested alvin on tqm... he really can remember almost everything... thru testing him, i also managed to remember more things... hahahahaha...

tqm test was rather easy... actually is very easy cos when we see the question paper, then we started asking each other le... hahahaha... was stucked at one question... heng rohaidah asked miszah tat question during the test then i managed to overhear it...

after the test, went out with my class ppl... hahahaha... got 2 sides jio me...hf jio me go cwp shopping for formal wear, then the guys jio me go watch movie... in the end, went jp to watch spongebob squarepants the movie with mabel and jac... hahahaha... it's a bloody lame and cock show la... laugh all the way man... the guys actually wanna go watch the eye 10 de... but front row left... so they nv watch...

after the movie, went long john to have dinner... chit chat until 10 plus then left there... was at the mrt station when jq called... then waited for them... hahahaha.... can't imagine 4 guys eating and chit chatting all the way frm 7 pm till 10 plus pm... didn't know guys so chang qi one... hehehehehe....

ok la... tat's all for now... nothing much left le....

ciaoz...

yeah~~ finally got my hair cut... hahahaha... almost 6 mths nv cut my hair le... hahahaha...

anyway, finally saw ryan today... he still as naughty as before... but his temper har... tsk tsk... getting frm bad to worse le... but i just love to bully him... hahahahaha... but he also got bully me... he disrupt my sleep...

when i'm napping just now, he came up on my bed and started playing with my hair... hahaha... he so cute... he took off my rubber band and say he wanna help me style my hair...

anyway, dunno wat else to say le... now on the sleeping mode le...

gtg sleep liao... tml still got csb meeting roleplay...

ciaoz...

hmmm.... too tired for the past few days to blog... reach hm at bout 2 am everyday... then super tired le considering tat i had to look after, chase after 4 young kids, the oldest being 6 yrs old...

so many things i had to do... on tues, i had to go to sch... at first plan to pon pdwm lect de... cos too tired to go... but in the end still went for it... after sch, went to cwp to buy slippers before going my grandma hse... cos my slippers is bright green in colour... then not suitable for the funeral...

went up my grandma hse to change... waited like an idiot for the toilet... in the end, i realised tat there's no one in there... my grandma closed the door to prevent my young cousins frm going in, in case they slipped... so stupid of me rite? i didn't even go and open the door... hahahaha... while waiting, my da jie came... so in the end, i went down with her...

my bro and my cousins stayed over on tues nite... i wanted to also... but then my mum dun allow... so bo bian went hm... took my uncle's lorry hm...

when at hm, i started playing maple story... cos my cousin ask me to go online to play with him... so tat i kill and he leech my exp... end up he nv come online... but my bro did...

wed...
the third day of the wake... got prayers on tat day... then if i go to sch, it'd be too late for it... so pon the whole day... went at 11am... walk to my grandma hse with my da jie... she also pon sch tat day...

play poker with my cousins... they so funny.. play tai ti the punishment is to drink a cup of water... nv join them la... just watch only...

was the "childcare" for quite a while... have to kept going after the kids...

prayer session started at 7pm... was quite tiring cos need to stand and kneel, stand and kneel... then with the kids is even worse...

all the offerings were to be burnt tat nite... then while they are preparing, i had to hold the four little kids back... cos the adults scared they might go near the fire... and i was the one to hold them back... until a distant relative call me to go and give offerings to my grandpa... then i moved the kids to the maid before going off...

had to hold hands to form a circle while the fire burns... then have to tell my grandpa wat's the unit no of his new hse... according to the priest... but me and my cousins dunno wat he saying.... and dunno wat's the no... so left it to the adults...

helped clearing up tat nite... also helped to keep the tables after the whole thing ended... while pushing the table top to a corner, it hit my leg... hahaha... clumsy rite? got swollen on the spot... found a big blue black tat nite...

was nervous bout the tqm presentation tat nite... cos the next day presentation and i haven't look thru a single thing... almost everyone stayed over tat nite... except for me... sob sob... if not for the presentation, i would've stayed le...

thurs...
last day of wake, also the day to send my grandpa to the crementorium... had to go sch for presentation... at first dun wanna go too early de... cos my mum told me the prayers start at 11 am, the time of tqm lesson...

anyway, requested to leave early tat day... and tat lecturer so chin chai de lor... so rite after i presented, i went off le... came hm to put all my stuff before going my grandpa's wake... when i reach there, they still praying... then can't squeeze in also... cos dun have joss sticks and incense paper... so after i changed, i join my cousin, jie sheng, whose leg is in case, so he cannot join them... stood there with him... then when i got a chance, i squeezed into the procession after my cousin...

managed to look at my grandpa one last time before they sealed the coffin completely... my aunts cried at tat point in time... was really sad at tat time... cos i will nv get to see him ever again... finally dropped my tears... and after tat, was crying all the way when we're supposed to sit by his coffin while the priest prays... the scene was really bad... cos everyone's crying, esp all the females... had a short rest while waiting to send my grandpa on a last journey... asked my dad to help me put my slippers on the bus...

anyway, just to mention for easy reference, the 4 youngest cousins of mine are jolene, kelvin, ivan and gary...

carried ivan while walking for th last journey... the ground is too hot for the kids to walk... mind u, it's 2 in the afternoon with a blazing sun... so have to carry him... jolene was carried by her uncle. kelvin was carried by my another cousin and poor gary... he had to walk... cos my cousin, wei hao, had carried his bro, kelvin, for the prayers just before going off... in the end, i still made wei hao carry gary... cos its really hot...

on the way, ivan kept toking to me... he was saying tat he saw the maid throwing my grandpa's bed away, tat we are going to burn my grandpa le... tat we had to walk on the hot floor... tat we're not going to see my grandpa again le... smart rite? and guess how old is he? he's just 4 yrs old lor...

halfway, wei hao put gary down again... then my er jie took over carrying him, while my bro offered to carry ivan for me.... when we were near a zebra crossing, my er jie told my da jie to carry gary after tat... in the end, when my da jie carry him, it's time we board the bus...

on the way there, gary is super quiet... ivan was toking non-stop as usual... jolene was with her dad and kelvin was with tat same cousin who carried him... gary only toked when he saw the zoo road sign... cos my grandpa was to be cremented at mandai crementorium...

the environment there is very nice.... really... it's very new i think... it looks new anyway... the sadest part is when my grandpa is sent to be cremented... the priest told all of us to shout to my grandpa's spirit to be careful of the fire... in the end, we dun even know wat's going on until much later... cos our generation hokkien not gd... then no one translate for us... but it's really saddening cos everyone including those distant relatives broke down into tears... even my mum.... then my da yi and san yi is the worse... they cry until my mum have to support my da yi and my san yi zhang have to support my san yi...

when we left the viewing rm, my xiao yi was sobbing in her husband's arms... i see already also very sad...

after tat, we have to unpin the "xiao"... it's different cloth pin onto the t-shirt to show ur relationship with the decease... then took off the socks to wear our shoes to go back hm... here comes the pai sei part... as earlier, i ask my dad to put my slipper on the bus... in the end, my dad dunno pass to who... end up my slippers was lost and i had to go back bare-footed... then my sis they all very bad... still make me walk to get them drinks when they had their shoes on lor... then the floor is so badly littered with peanut shells... sharp one lor...

luckily for me, my dad found my slippers in the end... dunno frm who also... after lunch, went up to my grandma hse... super tired by then... but cannot go hm yet... cos need to settle all the stuff... then having dinner there also...

finally went hm at 6 plus... then took my uncle's lorry hm again... after showering and the last episode of 1/2 yuan fen, i went to sleep le... super duper tired...

fri...
went to sch as usual... think i left sch too early for this one whole week... hf they all so funny... ask me today no need to leave early ar? hahaha... actually wanna go collect my grandpa's ashes with my mum de... but dun wanna be late for lecture... so in the end nv go...

went to spac2go clubrm to put my photo for ndp... dunno if the photo can ma... cos was taken when i'm in sec 3... but bo bian la... no time this week to go take photo...

skipped my lunch cos dun feel like eating after i went back to sb frm saa... fma was next... luckily, i did my fma tutorial last week le... so this wk no need to do...

had my usual picnic during tms lecture... hahahaha... got western food in... so nice... hahahahaha... wun get caught cos jq sitting in front of me... and block me frm ms ok's view.. hahahaha... the advantage of sitting at the last row...

after the 1st hr of lect, we got a break... then i got yogurt drink and an apple in... hahahaha... eat something oily le have to get fruits to clear my intestine... hahahaha... tok cock...

anyway, did nothing constructive frm fri nite till now... play solitaire all the time... ar bo is watch tv... sianz~~

anyway, the only gd news is tat i got my itp attachment le... it's at 78 shenton way, which is so much closer to tanjong pagar mrt than raffles place... the pay is 440 bucks and i'm in the same coy as lp and hf... got gd and got bad la...

gtg... need to have my beauty sleep le... super tired since i broke my record... got up at 8am this morning... tired tired tired...

ciaoz...

first day of the funeral... not alot of ppl there today... only my uncles and aunties and cousins there... alot of customs to follow...

not feeling too sad today... only nearly cry 3 times today... 1st was when i told ty bout this on the train this morning... 2nd was when i told hf and the 3rd time was when i'm chatting with my er jie on the way frm je to wdl...

was supposed to go over right after sch de... but they doing tqm presentation... so stayed behind to do with them... msged er jie to see if she wanna meet then she called back saying she's at boon lay le... then meeting me at je... so i passed my work to lp they all and left...

the funeral is not under my grandma hse tat block... but was at the next block... cos her block got too little space on the ground floor to carry out the funeral...

was made to changed into a white t-shirt provided by the casket... then when me and my er jie went down, had to pin a piece of cloth on the left sleeve... have to pray to my grandpa first then started to help them fold the incense paper into ingots... helped to burn incense paper also... have to keep it burning... think it represents smooth journey to the underworld ba... not too sure also... then cannot ask on the spot...

first time saw my grandma since sat... she looks ok la... but got teary eyes when the distant relatives ask about my grandpa... the only ppl who cried until very jialat is my grandpa's siblings...

had to look after my cousins also... so many young kids there... then one of them kept clinging onto me... kept asking me to carry him... bring them to the playground he only wan me to carry him and dun wanna play... end up my hands until now still trembling...

super tired le... dunno wat i toking le... think i need sleep badly... tml still muz go and help...

ciaoz...

decided to open up this blog for all to see...

okok... new ppl seeing my blog, i have to repeat the same thing...

discuss my blog can... but pls dun say out the contents in front of me... i seriously dun like it...

those whose blog i linked, if u dun want me to link ur blog to mine, just tell me... drop a msg in the tagboard to say so...

if u wanna link my blog in ur's, feel free to do so... i dun mind de...

tat's bout all...

ciaoz...

stunned... just so stunned... suddenly just lost my grandpa... well tat's according to my cousin... hopefully it's not true... now still waiting for my mum to come hm frm the hospital...

my grandpa was not feeling too well since a few years ago... i know tat... but i dunno wat is he down with...

on sat, heard frm my mum tat he was hospitalised again... but this time, the condition was not too gd... tat day only heard my mum saying tat the doc told my aunt tat if we wanna visit him muz faster visit le... so accompanied my mum to the hospital with my da jie...

ok... anyway my mum just called... it's bad news... my cousin is correct... my grandpa just passed away at 10.20 pm...

suddenly got tears in my eyes... gosh... cannot be so emotional now... have to be strong for my mum... just wat's wrong with me... i tot i wun cry... cos not too close to my grandpa... but...

ok... let me just continue frm sat... went to the hospital with my mum, my da jie and my san yi (my mum's third sis)... think my san yi can't really stand it le... cos she went out of the ward so many times... then her eyes looks teary... after tat, my qi jiu (my mum's 7th bro) and my er jiu (my mum's second bro) came up frm the foodcourt... after tat, my da jiu mu (my mum's eldest bro's wife) came with 2 of her kids, my xiao yi's family (my mum's youngest sis) and my liu jiu's (my mum's sixth bro) family came together... next to cry was my da jie... she just broke down in the arms of her bf... seeing her cry, i think a lot of them also on the verge of crying le... usually when i see ppl cry, i'll break down too... but this time, i held back my tears... if i also cry, then they might all break down... and my mentality tat time was to be strong for my mum and thx god tat he's still alive... i shouldn't cry at tat point in time cos he's still not gone yet... but it's really heart wrenching to see him in pain... he was hooked up on machines and when we visited him tat day, he barely opened his eyes to see us... when my aunts they all called out to him, he also barely responded...

there's a life and death situation in his ward yesterday... the one on his right side died yesterday... at 5.20pm... cos my mum they all overheard... the patient's family was crying so badly... she was saying something like " you are a gd man... move on in peace and find a gd family to reincarnate" ... i was so sad then... but tat's life... one has to go thru birth, aging sickness and death...

msged my er jie when we're bout to go hm... cos she coming hm on sat... in the end, she wanted to come visit my grandpa also... so we waited for her...

went hm on a cab... tat nite, my mum told us tat my grandpa's condition is really bad... he might just past away in these few days... he was dignosed with cancer a few years ago... it was just small then... but being stuborn, he refused any form of treatment... during the third day of lunar new year this year, when he went back for checkup, the doc say it's best if he undergo chemo... thou it wun heal him... but at least can prolong his life... but he just doesn't wanna go thru it...

yesterday his condition still not tat bad... although in pain, he could still sleep in the position tat he always do... but today when we go and visit him in the evening, he could barely move into tat position... in fact, he could barely move and barely moved...

argh... why does my da jie have to be sniffing away in the background and bring back the tears in my eyes??

can see tat his condition had sort of worsen today... even my bro who my went yesterday can tell... just reached hm not too long ago... then at 10 plus, my xiao yi called my mum to ask her to get ready... cos the doc called them to say tat things dun look gd and he's in a critical condition le... then they all going to rush to the hospital and will fetch her there also... wanted to go with my mum... to at least try to give her some support... but i dunno if it's bad news will i be ready to handle it... who knows it might be my mum giving me support... and with one less person, my mum will be able to cope with comforting my grandma, my aunts and my uncles...

frm these 2 days, i really admire my mum... she can be so strong for her family... tat day, a lot of them already got teary eyes le... but only my mum is the exception... and when she called just now, i expect her to be unable to speak... but her voice is still the same as always and doesn't sound shaky... ask me to pick up the phone or to tok to someone, i dun think i'll be able to tok for long before i break down...

ok... better dun say much now...

ciaoz...

nothing much these few days... just tat i've officially retired!!! hahahaha... actually is stepped down frm my financial secretary duty in spac2go... and guess wat? the one who took over me is none other than hf... hahahaha... easy job la... think it's easier for her to come find me if she got any prob with the job... but dun think she'd have la... her a/c tok kong one... so no worries...

had tms ca on fri... so on thurs, the pdwm tutorial was super pathetic... only 10 turned up... and all females... hahahaha... like hf they all say, our class basically turned into a ger's sch le... all the guys in my class pon lesson... so rare lor... esp so for jq...

was doing hrm project on fri... finally finished it... and it's printed le... hehehe... now only need to reherse for the roleplay le...

spent the whole of my sat slacking at hm... was actually supposed to be filled with events... but all got cancelled on fri nite... sadz rite... hahahaha... sometimes feel tat i have no life de... everyday slack at hm... no one jio me out...

sun was no diff... spend the whole of today reading jane green's book... and i finished it... didn't take long la.. considering tat tv was my top piority...

hmmm.... just wonder if i'd ever meet someone how knows me inside out...

ciaoz...

okok... try to keep it as short as possible.....

sat went to do hrm project at 8 am... crazy rite? do project at 8 am at yew tee... after tat went back to sch to do tqm project at 1130... meeting time was 1130... but hrm ended too early... so went shopping at NTUC at bukit batok... end up i'm late... but lp and mabel even later than me... so me and jac start first... sp cheat ppl money de... pay so much sch fees in the end so many plugs cannot use... have to go fc 5 to do project... project all the way until 4 plus... then went hm le... my sis they all were making dumplings when i reach hm... so joined them in making...

sun nothing much... went to my grandma hse to play with ryan... he so cute... got bright yellow slippers...

mon was spent rushing project again... after tms, alvin their grp was saying tat they restrict themselves to eat lunch for 20 min... then mabel so funny... she say to them tat our grp will beat them by using only 10 min to eat... so we da bao frm fc 6 and went to efac le... hahahaha.... lp ate at efac cos she have to take care of our belongings... then the rest of us went to eat at the nearby stairs... like cleaners like tat... hahahaha... but feel so bad for leaving lp alone at efac... so ate as fast as possible... then we went back to start our project le... was indeed so much faster than their grp... stayed in sch until 11... reach hm then drop dead on bed le...

tues met lp at 1000 at bukit batok... cos needa go her workplace take pics for tqm... end up both of us also late... took a few pics... then went to the mac there to eat breakfast... finally got to use m vouchers le... got 5 buck left... then only paid 30 cents for the meal... shared with lp... then went to sch le... stopped at convention there... cos needa pass $$ to alex for the agm and peer counselling... saw jianlong on bus duty also... hahaha... shuai ge leh... he so friendly tat no matter whenever he saw me he also wave and smile at me... hahahaha... fa hua chi le... help frankie and zhenglong then went off at 12... cos doing hrm at tat time... end up i was the earliest... followed by ty, pl and rohaida...was toking bout supernatural things there... then end up alot of things happened... pl was telling us her incident in sb... then in the end, we took the same lift... when we went in, the cleaner was telling us tat the lif broke down just before... so hopefully it doesn't breakdown again... pl was so freaked out lor... luckily nothing happened la.. reach 6th floor then pl wan to fill water... end up me and ty walk slower... but nv stop to wait for her cos gurdip's there also... then she so funny... ask gurdip to wait for her cos she scared to be alone... hahaha.. actually there's more tat happened than wat i can say here... ask me personally for details if u wanna know... hrm project is roughly finishing... after sch continued with tqm... and finally, we finished it by 11 pm!!! so happy... even cover page also finish and everything is printed le... only left the pics to sort out then can hand in the project le!! think our's the fastest grp in the whole class ba...

wed... actually got duty in morning de... but in the end, changed to afternoon shift with huixian... went to do a bit of the appendix before going for duty... was late due partly to the rain... have to walk a longer route... did duty with eugene... a bit strange... cos nothing much to tok about... then he kept slacking on the job... hahahaha... i was there standing while he sat down... today's shift not bad la... got another shuai ge doing duty... he's not exactly too shuai la... but his features not bad looking... just tat complexion not too gd... and his name is alvin... hahahhaa... actually i think guys call alvin de all quite gd looking la... anyway, tat's for all the alvins i've met... hahahaha... finally got the photos taken on tues... not bad... bringing it to sch tml...

ok la.... gtg shower and sleep le...

ciaoz...

argh... the laptop screen getting frm bad to worse le...

did i mention before tat green tea kit kat is very nice?

okok... shall begin my entry for today...

went to sch at 9 thou lessons start at 11... cos to do hrm project... was supposed to go saa to pass karen something for said... for peer counselling de... so suai lor... when i go there, karen was with ms angelvin and mrs lim... mrs lim still know me... but angelvin didn't even know who the hell i am... so was karen... but heck la... she know who said is then can le... was late for my project due to this... did some editing for the project... then went for PDWM lecture... nothing much during lecture la... after tat, went for lunch... went up to the lab with mabel they all... tok cock there... then alvin took a video of us... hahaha... so funny... cos we were actually chit chatting while he's taking it... then recorded our laughter in as well... quite funny la... FMA was ok... just tat krishnan kept walking ard... hahaha... it's bad cos i nv do my tutorial...

today's TMS lecture is the first lecture tat i nv feel like dozing off de... wahahahaha... got a super big cup of lime juice, a cinnemon(watever the spelling) roll and an apple into lecture hall... was sitting between hf and alvin... hahahaha... lucky got the guys to entertain me... otherwise sure bored to death de... hahahaha... was doing something when ms ok called me to answer some question... hahahaha... gave her a stupid answer... cos i dunno wat the hell she toking...

after lesson, went to do tqm project at efac... edited a lot of lp's part... well... cos we started with her's... went off at 7... cos have to come hm for my bro's bday... feel so bad having to leave early...

well... gtg sleep early tonight le... tml gonna rush projects again le... hrm 8am at yew tee... followed by tqm at 1130am in sch... wah... dying...

ciaoz...

ok... try to keep this as short as possible... gtg do my tqm project soon...

first thing first... i upgraded my blog le... now u all can link to other frens of mine frm my blog... have to thx stan for making this possible... cos he taught me the codes to do it... thx so much!!

today nothing much really happened... had csb at 8am... was quite early... the fourth to reach... saw jac on the way... called out to her... but her cd player on very loud... then she nv hear me... until we're at the door of the class... hahahaha... csb did a sample test paper... was fun doing the biz letter with ty... she's my partner for this test...

next was tqm... diana lim's last lesson with us... think she actually quite gd la... hf they all cannot find the coy she still will be reasonable as in give them extra time to complete instead of blaming them for not searching earlier... then watever question u ask she'd also answer... today's lesson super short... she complete in 1 hr's time... then release us early... was hungry... so didn't wait for hf their grp to finish asking her questions... after lunch, went to biz library to do project... at first wanna go study area de... but there too many ppl until no space le... library also no better... but at 1 then ppl start to clear out le... found this very interesting book on cartoon drawings done by cartoonists... it's very very nice...

next lesson is pdwm tutorial... antony as usual very slack... was crapping during his lesson... all went on friendster to see their prospective bd grp members... hahaha... i'm so fortunate... so far, my bd grp all shuai ge... not bad la... hahahaha... then dunno y they start toking bout how bd might change ppl's lives.. like maybe next time after yr 3 will see me and alvin hold hands... hahahaha.... wat rubbish lor... hahahaha... so funny...

went hm with hf, sp, jq and alvin... hahahaha... so nan de they take red line... esp alvin... cos they go yew tee to interview the person for tqm... so got company until yew tee... better than nothing... tok cock on the way as usual... saw the white noisy ad on today's today... hahahaha... think the pic look like a combi of monkey and pig... haahhahaha...

ok la... here i end my entry... will blog again...

ciaoz...

wah... nothing is working tonight... my laptop screen is spoilt, then IE load so damn slowly... haiz... just wat is wrong?

anyway, had a fun day today... first lesson, sp came into the lecture hall with a baby pink polo t... i think he look quite nice in it lor... but he so poor thing... kana condemn by hf they all... hmmm... actually guy wear pink is ok wat...

anyway, had to endure 2 hrs of hrm lect... just hate the irritating voice of christine ying... after lect, went for lunch before doing project... both me and jac tot not doing today de cos the question we just send to lp's boss... then waiting for her reply... in the end, do project... then went down to her workplace at 3 plus i think... go there ask her colleagues some questions and to collect wat we can... hahahaha... got a green tea flavoured kit kat... not bad thou... like the taste of traditional jap green tea...

went shopping with them at west mall after we finished... had a fun time shopping with them... them includes mabel, lp, ly and jac... hahahaha...

went hm at bout 6... saw this ger on the train... and guess where she's studying?? NUS high sch... woah... first time see someone frm tat sch... the sch uni not bad la... the skirt quite fashionable... can wear out on weekends de... the top... just a plain white blouse...

just a tot...
hmm... being with a all single gers grp has lead me to think tat there's actually more pros than cons about being single... there is just so much freedom... no time limit and u dun have to think bout ur partner's feelings... cos the partner is non-existence!! hahahahaha... toked bout marriage today with them... hahahaha... my idea marriage age is bout 25... hahahaha... tat's in like 6 yr's time... oh no!! might have to go matchmaking centres le!!! btw, anyone wanna join me if tat day ever comes? wahahahahahaha

gtg sleep le... 8 am lesson tml...

ciaoz...

wahahaha... just got a gd news frm cf... he got offered a scholarship by SIA... hahahaha... so happy for him...

well... shall start frm mon...

nothing much happened on mon... just tat our tqm project is near completing le... hahahaha... did the slight editing as in see wat's missing... then after tat went to the bazaar at sp plaza... nothing much there... just saw yanling and the few lecture hall de gers there selling things... eddie ong was there too... he like some psycho like tat... feel tat he's following us ard... then when we leave he also leave... sounds psychotic? or is it plain coincidence? hahahaha... reach hm at bout 6... (tot i ended project at 4 plus... shop one bazaar shop so long meh?) anyway, ryan is such a smart boy... when he wanna take things he cannot reach, he will use my mum's feather duster to reach up to the thing de... hahahaha... so cute...

ok... today... nothing much... was supposed to meet them at dover at 1100 to do hrm project... surprised tat i met hf on the train instead of ty... hahahaha... in the end, their grp also meet at 1100... when we reach, ty and jq are already there... then mabel arrived, next was rohaida and miszah... just right both grps can walk into the sch together... cos peiling not coming, jl will be late...

went to biz library to do the project... was sort of having the ideas le... then when jl is finally there, we started writing it down... he was late for 45 min... but cannot blame him la... he have to go fetch his grandma for eye operation, then in the end was late le... went on the bus, his ez-link got no $$, then the uncle say he muz pay 80 cents... but he only got 70 cents... so he got off the bus, top up his ez-link card at clementi mrt station before taking the bus again... then this time he put $2!! hahaha... we were so amused... cos his trip to sch is enough to allow him to take cab frm his place to sch le...

hrm project was the most smooth one... only left the typing to do... and the job was splited le... had a long time after lunch, so went up to the com lab at lvl5 with ty... completed my previous entry then was time to go up for lesson...

hrm tutorial was nothing much... was supposed to do the tutorial le then someone go and present... end up i do both the writing and presenting... hahahaha... i wanna be the first to present de... in the end, alvin was faster than me... sob sob... hahahaha... then even mrs szeto also noticed tat i was so anxious to present tat i've been taking my trans with me all the while... hahaha... second to present also not bad... at least only got 1 grp with the same answer as u... while we were discussing our project for next part of the lesson, alvin came and tok to me... he tok me something very funny... he say his msn fren frm jap saw a pic tat i took with him and said tat it's a nice pic taken with his mum... hahahahaha... actually i found it super hilarious... hahahaha... this shows how "motherly" i am... hahahaha... no wonder jq also like to call me mama... hahahahahahaha.... muz make alvin call me mama also le... wahahahahahaha...

was with mabel they all when we met antony before pdwm lecture... was waiting for the previous lecture to end so tat we can go in... antony so funny... cos the previous class clapped for their lecturer when he finished the lesson, he said tat we nv clap for him when he end his lesson... in the end, when he ended his lesson today, only jac, mabel, ty and me clapped for him... hahahaha... then he was laughing cos he nv expect us to do tat... ty started to disturb him by saying bye to him for 5 consecutive times!!! hahahaha... so funny...

wanted to go to the bazaar again de... but in the end lazy to walk... went hm with ly... got a waffle frm prima deli on my way hm... tat person hor... nv cook it properly de... it's only slightly cooked lor... the insides are still wet de... eeee... in the end have to put in in the oven to cook it before sharing with ryan... tat boy so sweet... he still gave me one of his choc tat his fren gave him...

my er jie is hm now... hahaha... she's pigging out... eat and eat and eat... hahahahaha...

gtg watch tv le...

ciaoz...

slept pass the day... hahahaha... didn't sleep last night cos was at yuling's hse...

yesterday was a relatively fun day... hahahaha... slept late in the morning then started watching the ova of fushigi yuugi... finally complete the ova after so long... the speed of the ova is too fast le... nv say properly then skip to the next thing le... so was a bit blur at times...

was supposed to meet cf they all at 8 de... so i tot nvm... still got time to bath later... in the end, he msg at 7 to say meet at 7.30... i was like dotz... sure no time to shower de... in the end, i used only 5 mintues to shower... record time sia... tot 5 mintues cannot wash hair + face + body... but i was wrong... replied cf's call (he called me, wanting me to bring oranges de... but in the end i was showering and he told jc to do so le...) and told him tat i'll be late... in the end, i was 5 min late... he was even later than me... only stan reach early... jc was also late... hahaha... went to yl's hse... all her relatives were there... didn't manage to greet her mum cos she was busy playing majong... in the end, yl warm the food for us... had our dinner then cf start to repair her com... was watching him repair the com... then some of them suggest playing card games since the adults are still playing majong... so played heart attack... played majong for a while then since i not playing, went into the rm to see wat stan and cf doing... found stan watching simpsons on cf's phone... so watched with him... after tat, nothing much lor... ml left at bout 2 plus am... xj sent her down to take cab hm... slack the whole night... first to sleep was jc.. cos he just came back frm tekong... next was xj... was watching mtv on xj's laptop when yl fell asleep too... i was next... really cannot tahan le... then fell asleep at bout 6 plus... hahaha... was still hearing cf and stan toking while i sleep... stan was the sole survivor of the night... cf also gave in to sleep after he finished...

woke up at bout 9 plus in the morning... yl's mum cooked for us... as we are about to go, her mum gave us ang bao... hahaha... she also prepared one for ml... then ask me to pass to her... tong pang cf's cab hm... hahaha... was so tired by then tat i went to sleep almost immediately... when i woke up, it was already 7 pm le... then saw cf's msg to ask if i reach hm safely... hahaha... so lag... watch tv for the rest of the evening... then nothing much le...

will blog again soon...

ciaoz...

dunno is it gmail lousy or is it my zonealarm "too good"... just can't access... so dumb... get protection frm emtering my mailbox... disabled the zone alarm le...

anyway, nothing much happened on wed, thurs and today... or rather, i'm getting lazy to type le... hahahaha... only interesting thing is tat we are to register our grps for BD soon le... wat's BD? BD is Business Development... final year project for biz students...

so lame lor... nv let us have a chance to interact with ppl frm other sb courses then wan us to work with them... heng got frens in DBF de... now my grp somehow settled le... only left waiting for 1 mktg student...

damn tired... wanna go sleep le... yest deprived of sleep cos was rushing the financial report for spac2go until 4am then sleep... then havta wake up at 9 am... tired tired tired... hahaha..

tml going yl's hse... wonder if can stay over ma?? hmmm.... hopefully can...

ciaoz...

argh!!! damn the samsung mobile website... always load so long de...

well... shall blog while it's loading...

was coughing since sun nite... then yesterday became cough + flu + headache + fever... fever came on and off de... so end up i slept for a long long time... when i reach hm, i slept frm 4.30 until 8 pm... woke up and had my dinner, then went back to sleep at 10... was woken up by my mum at 1+ to take medication for my fever... not panadol... so no need to worry... slept all the way frm 1+ until 1030 when ryan woke me up...

fetch ryan to his lesson... he so cute one lor... while the whole class is still at the corridor, he already rush into his classrm le... then when his lesson ended, he so happy to see me... hahahaha... so cute...

went to sch at 3 today... to do tqm project... sch suppose to start at 2 de... but lecturer got something on... so she shifted the lesson to yest afternoon... nothing much in sch... just tat we lau yu shen after sch at fc 6... made a big mess there... in the end, jq was the one to clear it up... hahahaha... but we not tat bad la... got help clear up as well...

went to cwp to shop with my da jie... and surprise surprise... guess who i saw at ness at cwp? hahahaha... saw wirna there... i was quite surprised actually... she's working there...

came hm play with ryan... tat baby so naughty... he throw something, then the thing cause a plate to smashed onto the floor...

just an inner tot:
are guys really so shallow as in they only look at the surface of women? are guys really meaning it tat they say they look at character first? ideas ideas... drop ur ideas on my tagboard ppl...

well... tat's all for today le... go see whether tat page load finish le ma...

ciaoz...

well... shall start frm sat...

went to one of my uncle's hse to bai nian... didn't manage to see them at my grandma hse on the first day cos they have to rush hm... for wat? cos one of their son, meaning my cousin, fractured his leg when he was ice-skating... after tat wanna go my aunt's hse de... but her husband's family go her hse visit... so decided to go my grandma hse...

was being made to play majong with my da jie, her bf and my bro... i so suai lor... almost going to zi mo le someone will sure do it before my de... lose until i pek chek i asked my uncle to take over me... hahahaha... in the end, he help me won ard 3 bucks... but my sis they all haven pay me yet... dinner was at my grandma hse... i simply loved her cooking... it's so delicious... next time got chance can tou shi frm her... hehehehe...

sun
watched tv for almost the whole day... my aunt who we didn't manage to visit on yest came to my hse... was acting anti-social... was in my parent's rm watching tv with my da jie's bf and my bro... finished typing my minutes for the last main com meeting... hahaha... after so long le then actually go and do it...

went to my grandma hse... this time is paternal side... played with naughty lil ryan before watching shallow hal... it's a nice show... even my xiao shen also watch with us... then i realised something... my dad and his bros har... only 2 of them will wait for the wife de... the rest say go means go le... wun wait for their wives de... my xiao shu also like tat, my dad also like tat... my xiao shen wanna finish watching shallow hal before going hm but cannot cos of my xiao shu...

anyway, needa go sleep le... tml got sch liao...

happy valentine's day ppl...

it's not gonna be a lonely valentine's day this year... hahahahaha... dun think too much... wat i mean is tat i spending it with Mr. Ryan Lim Kai Yi!! hahahaahaha...

ciaoz...

burning my pics into cd while typing this entry...

had a wonderful day... went to meet lp and mabel at jp to get stuff for the steamboat at lp's place... those present are hf, lp, mabel, jac, alvin, yl, sp, jq and me... had fun esp after eating... cos we went to lp's rm to play blackjack... tat ger har... so heng today... everytime also she win de... she's the banker, then in the end won bout 40 buck frm us... hahahaha... i lost near 7 bucks to her... then the rest are contributed mostly by alvin and sp...

went to eat at billy bombers at jp after tat... the serving damn big man... even i also cannot finish it... damn big... then my drink is free flow cos i ordered sprite... end up i share with alvin and poured a cup for mabel... hahahaha... refilled 3 times... think tat person also shock ba... cos with the big serving of food, which customer wud refill their big cup of drink? hahahaha... but i water tank la... so cannot blame also...

was so damn full tat we decided to walk lp hm... meaning walking frm boonlay mrt station to lakeside mrt station... quite near actually... so i see no diff in walking and taking the train...

so unlucky today... i came hm and my sis tried to make me play blackjack with them... lost so much today le... dun wanna gamble anymore... hahahahaha...

gtg le... damn tired...

ciaoz...

wahahaha... second day of lunar new year... a bit late, but still, HAPPY NEW YEAR to those reading my blog...

time to update..

7th feb
went ktv with lp, mabel, sp, jq and alvin... had lotza fun, thou was quite pissed off by the service of kbox at cineleisure... never ever go to tat kbox...

at first wanna go kbox executive de... but sp say cine kbox better, got big big rm with 4 mics... so went there... was shown to a SMALL rm despite having 6 ppl there... if it's at kbox executive, the rm wud be for 3 ppl only... in the end, we ask the person how come give us a small rm, last time sp and his frens 5 person go got a big rm with 4 mics, then tat person say tat rm is for 7 ppl de... wth lor... one less then cannot go ar? tat one still nvm.. kbox executive lunch package can sing all the way frm 11 am to 4+ pm... but this kbox? come and chase us off at 2.30 pm... but this person who came to chase us is not tat bad... at least he told us our time is up le then asked us if we wanna extend... since we haven't sing enough, we extended... and he told us extend muz pay another 20++ bucks... nvm... but bill comes, wtf!! so bloody ex... trying to chop us!! it's almost the same price as the lunch package and we only got to sing for another 1 and 1/2 hrs!! lunch package for 6 pax is $38 something, but this one? it came up to $31 something for another 6 cups of drinks and 1 and 1/2 hrs of singing!!!

nvm tat... but after tat when our time is up, u know wat happened? another staff came and he just opened the door wide, on the dimmed lights to full and told us to go... after he finish toking, he just left the rm!! i was like wtf? is tat how u serve ur customers? bloody pissed off by him... then lp say heck him, sing finish the song first... then she slam the door shut and off the lights...

was so damn angry after tat... then when i met my da jie at 6pm, i told her the whole story and asked her opinion on whether i should write a business letter to the management of kbox... wth lor... u r in the service line and this is how u behave... shame on u!!

shopped with my da jie for her shoes then went hm to clear my table... this year not bad la... at least i finished clearing my table top, a shelf and a drawer... hahahaha...

8th feb
new year's eve... wanted to sleep until 12 plus de... but in the end got woken up by my da jie at 1040 and was made to bring bread downstairs for ryan... cos tat baby dropped his bread while on the way to his dou dou ban...

went to my grandma hse at bout 5 plus... tok with my uncles and play with my cousins until it was near dinner time... then helped to set up the food and tables before eating... hahahaha... of all my cousins, only my family is the most well-mannered de... then only we would help with the setting up of things... the rest only sit there and wait...

after dinner, my er jie went with my uncles to IMM to get some new year plants while we go hm first... in the end, me and my bro have to go downstairs to carry them hm... 3 pots in all... was quite nice la... next time if u all come my hse u all can see... helped to mop the floor, prepare for prayers and put all the new year goodies on the table... started praying at 0015 cos my auntie say can only start at tat time... after tat, watched the ova of fushigi yuugi... was so blur bout it... the pace is too fast to follow le... by the time we slept, it was bout 0300 le...

9th feb
first day of new year... only left my hse at 1300+ cos ryan was going to his maternal grandma hse in jb le... so his dad called to hurry us... his son wanna play with us before going... hahahha... so cute rite? stayed at my paternal side until 1545 or so, then walked to my maternal grandma hse... think those official bf/gf of my family is very gd... my grandparents all will treat them like their own grandchild de... like my da jie's bf like tat... he nv go with us, but my grandparents all got ang paos for him le... went off at bout 2000... wanted to watch the jack neo movie "i do i do" de... but in the end, nv show at cwp... so go the uncle ringo fun fair there walk walk to see if there is any majong set sold... but in the end dun have... then the 5 of us, my da jie and her bf, er jie, my bro and me decided to go ktv at civics... party world is so damn ex!! spend bout $24.40 each... heng i got read the bill... then found out tat they charge us the wrong price... we only got 5 pax then they charge us the 6 pax rm... a diff of 10 bucks lor!!

was damn tired when we reach hm... cos 0100 plus le... went to bed after bathing...

10th feb
did nothing much today... slack at hm and watch the shows i recorded yesterday... wanna go out... but no place to go...

gtg le... show start le... hahahha... go watch tv again...

ciaoz...

woah... just realised how long i've not been updating my blog... nothing much happened during the period i nv update... projects are occupying most of my time except for the last few days...

managed to get hm earlier on thurs... cos finished our project le... was waiting for the other grp to finish with the guys... met jh on our way to fc 4, in the end, me and hf went to see his project... so gd lor... his was one of the very few year 2 projects tat got displayed at spinnovex... went to disturb spac2go ppl tat's on duty after looking at jh's project... after meeting ty they all, we went hm while the guys, mabel and jac went bugis... didn't go out with them cos i have to go hm and wait for my uncle to ask him bout his coy for TQM project... anyway, brought ryan to NTUC at wdl civics centre... he so funny lor... keep toking bout pokemon... then made me buy sweet for him...

fri got nothing much except for my ccf duty for sb... was quite fun la... cos my job is super simple... ms ok put me as the one to record the number of ppl per tour... so i not the tour guide... was made to replace lp for the last trip... cos i damn bored there then lp also hungry le... so qiao... the grp i brought ard, got this quite gd looking guy... then his gf's name is also wanlin... common name is like tat de... after sch, didn't go out with them again... cos it's my grandpa's bday... wanted to go hm to put my bag de... in the end, i realised tat my keys are with my da jie... so bo bian havta go there straight... reach there le i nearly bored to death... my er jie and ryan are sleeping... end up i help my mum they all with the cooking while my uncle they all pursude me to join them buy toto... cos dunno who say those born on lunar 25th march de very lucky with this kinda things...

sat was on ccf duty again... but this time is for spac2go de... duty was damn bored... lucky got serene and kris there to entertain me... hahahaha... first thing we were made to do was to cancel out the sat opening hrs for a bookmark... after we finished, serene and i sneaked off to buy food on the pretext of giving out flyers... after buying food, we shared it with the juniors... saw mrs lim and she said tat ms angelvin coming at 12... then started to dread 12... got dragged to take ice-cream by serene and dimas they all... but i dun feel like eating it... after tat, went to see taufik at convention centre there... so damn crowded lor... even the steps also filled with ppl... taufik look so toot last time de... hahaha... his admin card pic is so funny... later we found out tat ms angelvin also went in to watch taufik... she sat at the first row somemore... so irresponsible of her lor... she didn't set as a role model for us lor... her own duty slot she go in and watch... tsk tsk...
went shopping at cwp with lp... walk and tok alot... got a new shampoo frm body shop, a pair of jeans frm hang ten and a silver polish kit frm bits n pieces... actually wanna get another pair of jeans frm samuel and kevin de... but dun have my size... dun have my size still call urselves unisex... dunno wat the shop doing de... was so pissed off by them...

today did nothing much except for watching tv and helping my mum clean the hse... help her clean and i haven't clear my table yet... argh... havta do it on either tml or tues le...

damn freaking tired... also dunno why these few weeks like super lack of sleep like tat... nothing to entice me to come and blog, or even to come online... so most likely wun be blogging so soon le... wat i like to do these days is to sleep... hahahah... getting more and more like a pig le...

go sleep le... dun feel like thinking bout anything anymore... relationships?? see how it goes ba... shall wait for the one who could take my breath away... hahaha... like real got such person... getting pessimistic le... should stop liao...

wanna go sleep le... lacking sleep for so long le... when can i sleep well thru the night? past few days kept dreaming bout doing projects... think got project phobia le... sob sob...

ciaoz...